lIghTnInGz~

2010-10-12T23:59:00.003+08:00

It really astounds me how some people can behave in the ways that they do.

Why does a person two-times her boyfriend? Because the "falling" in love element is gone? Because she wants some thrill in her life? Because of her family background? Is it that hard to stay faithful in a relationship?

Why do you even get into a relationship if you can't be faithful to the one you've chosen to be with? Because you just want someone to rely on? Because you want a back-up plan? Because it doesn't affect you in another way to share yourself with more than one - the more the merrier?

Why do some people keep lying and putting up a false front? To protect themselves from others? Are you not suffering from inferiority complex? Do you not truly love yourself - the real you under the facade of lies? Does it not make you guilty for lying to your boyfriend-no.1 about your whereabouts, right in front of your fling/boyfriend-no.2?

Have you thought of the hurt that you'll inflict on your boyfriendS? And then ultimately, yourself?

Can you love yourself a little more?

And it escapes me how a person can willingly be a third-party in a relationship, knowing full well that she has a boyfriend. Won't you question her morals? Won't you feel insecure with her, if in the future you two really get together? It's hard for people to change. Call me pessimistic.. but do you really think that she'll change once she's with you? Can you even trust her when she's not around you? Or do you think to be with her 24/7? Do you really think she won't commit the same thing again?

I'm flabbergasted at the seemingly lack of moral direction of these individuals. Maybe some people are truly open-minded.. but we can't confuse morality with open-mindedness, or can we?

Maybe I'm still a conservative.. but I cannot bring myself to accept these kinds of behaviour. I'm not as open-minded, maybe I'm bias. But I cannot agree with such attitudes and behaviours.

I have my own set of moral values which I identify with, which apparently are not shared by some others.

To each his own

2009-10-04T12:10:00.002+08:00

Why is the homepage of blogger always in chinese?

Anyway, I went to to 提灯笼 for the first time in don't-know-how-many years yesterday! Hahaha. Reminds me of the time when I was a kid.. When we'll just play with those paper lanterns and walk around the neighbourhood, then after that play with the candles! Hahaha.. I think paper lanterns are the best! I mean although those battery-operated ones are nice.. albeit damn noisy, but paper lanterns bring out the feel and essence or whatever of Mooncake/Lantern Festival.

Is it mooncake or lantern fest?! Hahaha

And I played with those tea lights too!! Hahaha.. Arranged my name with 'em on the sand and I think it's damn nice! Okay, I think I'm turning more and more narcissistic! I like how my name is spelt! Hahaha =D

2009-09-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I posted! Haha. Was blog hopping and sudd felt like blogging and so here I am.

Wells, time really flies. It's going to be 1 yr since I took A's soon but it just doesn't feel that long. And work at NCC had alr ended for 4 months alr.. I can still remember how stressed I felt during the initial weeks of work, and how I wanted to give up and quit, but I couldn't. Haha. In the end I still stayed for 6months! haha. And how I failed my first tp and the next one is coming soon. And sch has already started for close to 2months.

Econs is getting harder now and I've got parts which I don't understand. And was totally owned by the soci test we had last tues. And, I have a 3 pages long essay to complete for IBM by next mon. And to play catch up for the tutorials for math!

School may seem slack but it's not easy at all. Lots to study and there's alot of independent learning. And I feel I'm going out too much for my own good. Alr lagging behind and hearing from seniors abt how hard it is to score for exams is kinda unnerving.

Im actually quite scared I'll walk down the same path agn. I need to do sth abt it..

2009-03-18T21:40:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Death
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Hmms.. Quite true.. but I fear commitments too. haha

2009-03-14T22:14:00.002+08:00

OMG! I drove from ubi all the way to amk! I can't freaking belive I did it! NEARLY stalled the car once, though. Luckily, I didn't. Or else can't imagine what the driver in the car behind will do if it really stalled

2009-03-07T10:58:00.000+08:00

Scram, all you busybodies

2009-02-28T15:29:00.003+08:00

So it's official, we'll be getting back our results next fri. I'm getting real nervous! and after getting back results, we still need to think of our next step; where to go, what course to take. haix. I still don't know what I want to study and it still has to depend on my results.

Anw, yest was the last day I'll be assisting this really nice doc 'cos she's going to the States for a year. Kinda sad to see her go. And before she went off, she still wished me luck for my results and said she'll see me 1 year later as a med student. hahaha. The chances of me getting into med sch is like.. non-existent?

And today I went down to the disgnostic imaging dept to speak to a radiographer and a radiation therapist. Wells, they don't seem as interesting as I thought they'll be. I don't know.. and there's the contact with radiation and stuff? i dont know.
I think I'll try asking my in-charge to see if I can talk to a physiotherapist or etc.

And I passed my ftt!

2009-02-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

Just got back from my first driving lesson! Like omg. I kept fumbling and stuff! Seriously cant co-ordinate. I kept forgeting to check the rearview mirror then the side mirror and then the blindspot. And when going round a corner, my hands are like all over the steering wheel. I mean there's supposed to be this 9 3 12 o'clock thing. And I'm kinda confused abt when to step on the clutch brake and acc pedal and when to release them. And i looked at the right blindspot when my uncle asked me to look at the left! -.- And he was like.. you cant even differentiate between your left and right?! And I stalled his car once. =X And I didn't return the steering wheel fast enough and he quickly reach over and turn turn turn! hahaha. And I alw look away from the road and he'll be like.. look where you're heading! you want to drive into the field is it?! Like omgly paiseh. hahaha. And I stepped on the acc a tad too much and he went.. that's 5bucks worth of petrol. hahaha like =X

And he drove me to bishan to take train back! super nice of him la.. Had my lesson in ubi so if I had taken the bus, it would've taken me arnd an hour to get home. hahaha. Anw, on the journey to bishan, i was apparently resting my right foot on the brake pedal in the passenger side at one point and m uncle was like.. are you stepping on the brake?! and i gave the o.0 look and said huh.. there's a brake here? And his reply was.. of course la! 不然我会给你吓死！你的脚走开! So you can imagine how bad I've driven la.. hahaha

But it was fun!

Anw, if anyone of you want orr know of anyone who's finding a driving instructor, tell me!! So i can recommend to my uncle.. hahaha

2009-01-06T22:17:00.003+08:00

Work has been kinda alright, I guess? It's interesting to hear the doctors talk to the patients and stuff, most of the time anyway. But sometimes, it can get pretty sad. Most of the doctors and people working there are kind and nice, and hearing them talk and reading what the docs have written really allow me to learn and be more exposed to the medical field. It's kinda like fulfilling a dream or sth? I'm not smart enough to be a doc, but I can and have at least looked at how they work and stuff. Being a doc ain't easy.. And just being smart is not enough. To be a good doctor, you must really have the passion for what you're doing because the path to being one is hard and tiring. In addition, being a good doc, I think one has to have lots of compassion and wells.. kinda mentally strong, caring but yet detached? I don't know..?

It makes me kinda happy when patients smile at me and are friendly and nice. It makes the heart feel lighter. I really admire the patients' courage... They are so calmly going for the treatment and, looking at them, hearing them talk and the way they talk, you wouldn't think they're ill. Some of them can be so.. bubbly, warm and optimistic?

We should really cherish our lives... Live life to the fullest and make them meaningful. Have as little regrets as possible.. And really, do not procrastinate and put away doing sth if you can do it today, for life is unpredictable.

And it feels great when ppl appreciate you and say thank you or smile at you!

Anw, I'll be assisting a fierce doc tmr! I'm kinda scared? haha =X

2009-01-05T22:05:00.002+08:00

For 2009, I want to..

Be more patient
Do CIP
Be faster in doing things
Get better at my job
Spend more time with my family and friends!
Learn to cook
Learn dance
Learn Japanese
Practise my piano everyday
Go running with Joel every week
Save at least half of my salary each month
Shed 5kg! HAHAHA (like it's my unfulfilled goal of many years)
To not slouch everytime!
Get my driving license

Anw, I passed by BTT! Haha.. Next step is to get my PDL and go for lessons!

2009-01-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

Just came back from 0107 outing arnd an hour ago. Haha.. Didn't really want to go for it because it's a SENTOSA (!) but I'm glad I went for it! haha. Me Joel and Diana were late, mainly because of me and we went to get some food from Vivo bef going to meet the rest in Sentosa. Haha. I think the turnout was pretty decent la.. 10ppl, which is equivalent to arnd half the class. First game we played was soccer~ Haha. It was fun! Just like anyhow kick the ball and shouting and laughing at the top of my voice! Haha. I was just plain violent during the game.. So UNLIKE me! HAHAHA! So long since I last had a real work-out! Was out of breath damn fast and so I went to be goalkeeper~ haha. The next game was volley, which I'm not interested in, and so I just sat there and watch and look around and stuff like that. haha. Then after that we played captain's ball which was super fun too~ haha.

Sat down to talk and cam whore after we got tired~ haha. Tried to take a pic of me climbing/hugging a tree and ended up getting some scratches on my legs. And worse of all, the pic was kinda unglam la! Not the elegantly-holding-onto-tree look!

Anw, so after Sentosa, we went to Dhoby Ghaut to meet HongJie for dinner. Haha. Had it at Manhattan sthsth. Haha. And afterwhich we left for home!

LOL! Got tired and lazy of typing! hahaha.

Last post of 2008!

2008-12-31T20:48:00.004+08:00

2008 is coming to a close soon, and the new year is starting(!), bringing with it a new beginning and new opportunities. A time for ppl to start afresh and get their lives in order, if they haven't already. And 2009 also marks the start of ADULT FARE for me! ARGH! Travelling will be so expensive and I'll be spending quite a fair bit of money commuting to and fro from work, which is like in Outram?

I'm a kid no more! I may be naïve sometimes, and I'm not sure whether I'm considered matured, but I'm quite sure I'm not childish! Hahaha =D

And I'm kinda lil scared for work in the coming year because the clinic is going to be so busy, what with all the docs coming back from leave and etc. and I'm not sure whet I can keep up or not. But I must try my best!!!

Will be posting up my new year resolutions soon. At least I hope it'll be soon... haha

2008-12-10T23:04:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day at work! My legs are tired! But I'm supposed to be walking and stnading more as the days go by! haha. Omg. Tired tired tired.

But I think the experience will be very good. Only thing is.. there's alot of things to remember! It's omgly alot alot alot. The many different kinds of forms for different procedures, the many steps, papers, medical terms.. omg. And they have lots of medical jargon! haha. Alot alot alot of things to remember.. And we have to be fast! But I'm a naturally slow person! OMG! ARGH! And we MUST do everything correctly! No room for others!

There's still alot for me to learn! And I have to learn them fast! OMG!

Wushu Farewell for J2s'08

2008-12-06T02:44:00.003+08:00

Had wushu farewell today! Really miss the wushu ppl.. Haha. Had lots of fun playing mahjong, watching dance videos, and some funny and nice vids on youtube that they recommended. And THANKS ALOT JUNIORS for the sumptuous bbq dinner!!! Thanks for working so hard to barbeque food for us! I know I just sat there and kept demanding food.. =X haha. But really had a great time! And Tim Lim came down there 'cos he lives near and JoEe, me and him had a nice chat~ Haha. Tim Lim the organiser for gathering! =X haha.

And we took lotsa pics!!! And the farewell gifts are very sweeeetttt and kkaaawwwwwaaaiii desu! Thanks alot for the effort and stuff!! Just love the wushu ppl man.. Just feel really great hanging out with them! Haha.

Really had lotsa fun taking pics, talking, crapping and looking at them work! Haha~

And I took a family photo with my daddy and mommy of AJWushu! Haha.
Like the FIRST family photo. Hahahahahaha~~

Some pics! Rest will be in FB! hahaha!

2008-12-04T17:05:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was AJ's Dinner and Dance~ Haha. Wells, I had a seriously hard time trying to do the makeup. Anw, I think it's screwed la but due to the fact that it's LIGHT makeup, it wasn't very obvious. At least I think so. Haha. And rites, you should see the people. They really dress up for the event. Should compare last year's and this year's.. Some of them are really like omg. Haha.

And I took a photo with BB! Like.. OMG! haha. Was telling my friend I'll regret if I don't take a photo with him! Haha. I'm happy person~

And all the class photos and stuff! I just love taking photos! Although I look crap in them.. Haha. But yeah..

Let the photos do the talking!

Im lazy already! FB! Haha

2008-11-08T15:04:00.002+08:00

I like talking to my uncle. He's like very supportive and stuff. He has a son who's doing the A's now too, and he was like saying his son is like slacking at home and not studying for A's or sth. But anw, he was saying that it's ok if you don't do well for A's, but the least you must do is to work hard for it. The results aint as impt compared to the process. If you really still don't do well for it, at least you know you have put in the effort and you can look for other alternatives or another path to take, such as going to the poly. And not just give up when we feel hope is dim.

Anw, at this pt my dad said something that's really discouraging, at least it is to me. He said that he had already advised me to go to a poly 'cos I'm.. wells, at as clever/my brain isn't as agile my bro's (don't know if ya can use it this way..). Hmms.. I must say I was very sad when I said that, although it wasn't the first time. Why must they compare me with my brother and use him as a benchmark for how intelligent I am. I don't deny that my brother is clever, just that he doesn't work hard enough (at least I feel it was the case.. Im not too sure abt the present, but yeah). But can't my parents be a lil' wee bit more encouraging? I'm someone who needs lots of encouragement and affirmation, not people to pour cold water on what I'm doing or achieving. I can't understand why they have to tell me I'm like the least intelligent of us siblings.

Okay, back to my uncle. He was telling me that designing is a viable route I can take, since I don't have that much interest in science. Hmms, I dont know if I'm creative enough for that, but that was option I toyed with in the past. I dont min designing, just that I feel I don't have enough creative juices in me. And there's the psychology and health sciences.

Just feel happier talking to my uncle about such stuff compared to my parents. It's like they don't understand how I think, how and what kinda person I am, how I feel. He's really like much more encouraging than my parents, I feel.

And he talked to me about wushu and taichi last time~ He used to do taichi when he was much younger, but not anymore. He told me about the people, the time when he was still practising taichi, between chen-shi and yang-shi taichi and stuff like that. (eh, I forgot if it's yang shi, but i know there's chen-shi!) But anw, he was kinda surprised when I told him I was doing 1st International Changquan ( like everyone else..) 'cos he was expecting something like nanquan. Haha. But yeah. Anw, I did a horrible job at it.

So, I'm going back to try getting some econ phy and chem stuff through that thick skull of mine.

It just seems funny that I'm back to blogging in the midst of my exams.
It must be the stress.

2008-11-04T20:50:00.003+08:00

To go for your dreams

Or be realistic?

I think they cant co-exist

At least for me...

Why do I feel as if I'm living in a world where dreams and interest don't count?
That practicality comes first.

Like they say.. "喜欢不能当饭吃"
But is pursuing something which one doesn't have any interest in makes one happy?

Life is short...
Shouldn't we be doing stuff that makes us happy?

Will I regret in the future
joining in the mad race,
For something that I hold no interest in?

My reply would be a Yes.

Aren't we told to pursue our dreams
To not have any regrets
But ain't we not told too,
That we have to be practical

I'll gladly go for the former
But apparently my mom has an inclination towards the latter

Everything just makes life seem so tiring

I will not betray myself

I hope.

Enlightenment

2008-08-25T21:11:00.004+08:00

Okay. Let's see.. I've been enlightened about the previous issue I blogged about by my mom and brother.

Maybe there are other underlying reasons that prompted Lee Bee Wah to make the decision that she had. We wouldn't know, would we? We only know the issue from the reports and perhaps, the perspectives of the reporters. It may be biased and one-sided. It is not up to us to say what she did is right or wrong 'cos we do not have the full picture of what's going on. And she doesn't have to defend herself (doing more may let others feel as if she's trying to find reason to defend her actions) and account to us on why she made the decision to sack the team manager. She has no obligations to, does she? She just has to answer to the relevant athorities (or whoever?) for her actions.

It's like 杀一儆百. In future tournaments and games, there'll almost definitely be a coach present for every player.

And my brother was like telling me that actually, the team manager's and head coach's actions of not being present for Gao Ning's match can be seen as them belittling the men's team. It's like thinking that they have no hope of getting us a medal, so instead we should focus all our attention on the girls since they have a relatively better chance of winning a medal. Both the women and men worked hard and so we shouldn't be according special privileges to the women. All should be treated equally.

Hmms.. what they said were really insightful. There's more to it than meets the eye.
I just wished she had handled it with more tact.

I still am looking forward to some clarification on the matter.

Major disappointment

2008-08-25T19:02:00.005+08:00

I really am looking forward to the clarification from STTA, and I hope it comes soon. They more they delay in clarifying things up, the more people will be inclined to believe that the decisions were made because of the "Gao Ning incident", which supposedly wasn't the case.

Of course, I can sympathize with Gao Ning about the absence of a coach at such a crucial time. It must have been very demoralising for him, especially when he trained so hard for it. But, I feel that we cannot put the blame wholly on the the team manager and the head coach. And I thought Lee Bee Wah was being kinda ungracious. In MY opinion, she's like a green horn in dealing with such issues, no experience in sports management, and having absolutely no clue on how and when is an appropriate time to reveal her decisions (which I dont't agree with), in which case, I think the position should go to a more capable and experienced person. I feel that she's not acting like what a 'president' should be. She's not supportive and encouraging enough, if not totally not, caring only about the "real" players out there competing and whom have chances of helping us get a medal or two. She forgot totally about the roles that other key players play to make a team successful. Without the guidance and support of people like the head coach and manager, the Singapore Flag may not even have the chance to fly high at the recently concluded 2008 Beijing Olympics. We wouldn't have been able to feel the pride we felt when Feng Tianwei won the crucial game to send the Singapore team to the finals. I wouldn't have been able to feel the warm fuzzy feeling inside me when I saw the many schoolmates who gathered together after school to catch the semi-finals match in school, cheering the team on, and finally screaming and clapping with joy when we defeated the South Koreans. It's like she doesn't understand team dynamics, the kind of team-spirit and trust that need to be built and be present in order for a team to excel. Team-spirit is a very hard thing to build, and it can collapse easily.

To announce such a decision so soon after getting our FIRST medal in FORTY EIGHT long years, it's like casting a dark cloud over our achievements at the 2008 Beijing Olympics. We have waited so long for the medal and when it finally is in our hands, a decision has to be made to take some shine off the win. We should be basking in happiness about the win, and if it really has to be made, I agree with what Mr Zainudin Nordin has said, that 'I think we could have celebrated it first, and then found ways to resolve the issue.' And I totally agree with Singapore chef de mission to the Beijing Games Dr. Tan Eng Liang about what he said - 'If the STTA president wanted to act further, the decent thing to do would have been to conduct an inquiry.

'It would have been the proper thing to do, given that she has been in the sport for only over a month, with an inexperienced committee.'

We are sending a message to others that we are only concerned with results. No results? Out you go. And even if you've contributed to the success of one, but may have hicupped in another, we are a unforgiving lot of people, and out you go too. And will it be the case for athletes too?

We should be recognising the contributions and efforts of the head coach and team manager.

2008-06-30T19:36:00.002+08:00

What's your problem? So what if I failed my essay? You're just one stupid biased freak. Who doesn't want to do well and get an A? Failing my essay doesn't equate to me not doing anything for the subject. You think I don't want to do well? It was supposed to be my best subject. And I was being honest whenI said that I didn't have time to finish my Aq for compre and you don't have to shoot me for saying that. Or you'd rather I cook up some oh-so-fantabulous excuse and you'd fucking rather believe and accept that. Of course I know time management is something that I have have to deal with myself and not something that you can do anything about, which sane being with common sense doesn't know? You think I don't want to complete my AQ and get over 30 for paper2? I can't think up points and link to the qn and stuff, and Im trying to increase my knowledge so I can perform well. Quit being a two-faced monster, lacing your words with icings and shooting people with venomous darts after that. You ain't supposed to show favouritism and stereotype people. Praising those who have done well and saying that that's because they have done their work,although more often than not these people don't do their hw, while generalising and thinking that those who hadn't done well are because they dont do their work. Don't generalise and make assumptions - those are skills you're supposed to be well-equipped with. You're only concerned with results and grades. To you, those who have done well are definitely those who have put in the effort, while those who haven't are just slackers who don't give two hoots about their grades. Please, although I admit that for some of them they put in the hard work, but it is not all of them who do their hw. They have an added advantage because their linguistic skills are better.

I hate it when people pressurise me to perform. It's like a barrier stopping me from reaching my full potential; like something holding me back, restricting me.

I hate people who show favouritism.

I need and want affirmation and and see them as driving force to do better and excel

You freaking as*h*le. You failed terribly. Period

2008-06-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

Did this test that Joanne forwarded. I must say it's quite true.. For the first 2 parts at least. Haha =P

野象

自由奔放的霸道主義者

野象從小就生長在叢林裏，非常熱愛自由，高大醒目的外表很是搶眼，這類型的人開朗

樂觀，自由奔放，頗得眾人的喜愛，豪放起來有點不拘小節，不瞭解你的人可能會被嚇

一跳哦！你具有積極進取的精神，為人坦率直接，行事果決，不管遇到大事還是小事，

都不會猶豫，越能激發你的鬥志。

【如何排除人際煩惱】

你有點小小的霸道，有時候讓人很反感，建議你最好控制一下自己的壞脾氣，多為別人

著想，人際關係才會更加順利，此外，開玩笑要掌握好分寸，少跟小心眼的人混在一起

，即可避免不必要的麻煩。

【對異性的態度】

你能大大方方地跟異性相處，很容易交到男朋友，你的霸道主義有時會讓另一半受不

，也很可能會腳踏兩條船，唯有心胸寬大的異性，才能給你完美的愛情。

【職業預測】

你的領導欲超強，不管什麼工作都能得心應手，最適合自己當老闆。

Randomness

2008-06-06T20:12:00.003+08:00

I think I'm super screwed for mid-yrs man.. Only studied 1 topic for Physics, and I havent touched any of the other subj! Omg.. Too slack le. This is not the way man!
Yumin, you seriously need to buck up!

Anw, I don't know what I did but I la1 dao my neck on wed la! Omg la.. I think I'm quite stewpig. I couldn't turn/tilt my head to the right side or nod my head without hurting on wed! But it's much better now~ I still can't tilt my head to the right or nod too much.. But at least I can turn! wahaha.. But I still have to go back to the chinese physician on monday.. It's torture! Omgly pain la!

I need to get at least a B for prelims!!! haha.. My friend said he'll buy me 1 month of lunch if I can get at least 1 B for prelims~ For that 1 month of free food.. I need to work hard!! Wahaha!!

Food.. Here I come!

2008-05-27T14:59:00.001+08:00

小胖仔 died today.

2008-05-26T01:03:00.003+08:00

Loneliness is relative;
There is no benchmark upon which one can measure it
It's a feeling experienced by all humans - some more, some less
Some are at ease, while others are not
Eventually, it all boils down to how one perceives things
A glass, half-filled or half-empty
Optimism or Pessimism
And it's all one's choice,
to choose which to believe in

Regardless of where one is,
What one is feeling,
There are bound to be others who feel the same way
Albeit under different circumstances
So now,
Why do some feel as if they're alone?
That only those experiencing the same thing,
Under the same situation,
Then can they feel the same way
In the same magnitude
Though there can be no such measurements

It is but a feeling
Degree of which is set by oneself
To succumb or to hold strong?
It's all in the mind

But easier said than done

2008-05-10T19:40:00.004+08:00

They can somtimes be so discouraging...

Although it's a fact that my brain isn't as advanced as my siblings, and I'm not as clever as them, I just don't like it when they say it out loud.

I think I'm quite a competitive person and I don't like to lose to others.. and it applies too in the area of brains. I don't like it that I'm not as clever as them, or even more intelligent than them. I don't like the fact that I'm slow.. And I find it even harder to stomach when others have to say it out.

Maybe it's inferiority.. I don't know.. I just don't like it.

To ask me how confident I am of doing well for A's.. To tell me now that I should've gone to poly..

And how timely..

When I'm going to take the A's this year..

I'm filled with trepidation for A's.. How I wish I can escape from it; I'm fond of escapism.

I'm scared of failure. I cannot and do not want to fail.. yet I feel that I'm not capable of handling such brain-taxing work; I'm not bright enough to deal with it.

Arians need affirmation
Please tell me so in all its sincerity..

2008-05-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

I did a good deed today~ wahaha! Was walking to the bus-stop in the morning when I found this wallet. Searched the wallet and found this reccepit for payment of course fees from this tuition centre. Actually I was deliberating whether to throw it back onto the ground 'cos I haven got the time to pass it to my dad or sth.. Haha. That was quite an evil thought. So anw, decided to keep it first then return it after school. And I was nearly late for school as a result! Omg. Did the 100m sprint and managed to get to the class line just before the 2nd bell rang. Had a super hard time finding the tuition centre la! Luckily it's quite a well-known centre.

Anw, school was alright except for the college day part! omg la.. Super waste of time to sit for 5 hrs watching others get the various awards. But, en said he submitted my name for lion dance on that day, so I'm not very sure whet I have to attend college day or not. My PDG tutor is gonna think I'm finding all kinds of excuses not to go, which is actually whaat I was doing during civics class today. Haha. But I didn't tell en to put my name in after my tutor asked ok.. I merely msged him and ask and fervently hoping that he did submit my name while waiting for this reply =X

2008-05-04T19:38:00.008+08:00

Hmms.. I was asked if I'm happy. Wells, actually I don't really know whether I am or not. There isn't much thing that I'm displeased abt except maybe my studies, but I just don't feel like I'm truly happy.

Maybe it's because I feel that my life has no purpose..

But I don't know..

It just feels like something's lacking.. missing

I went to look at the posts when I first started having a blog. I think I've changed.. I don't know whether it's a big change or is it more subtle, but I know I've changed. Esp. in the way I see things..

Sometimes she feels as if she's living under a facade of smiles..
Sometimes she feels as if no one truly understands her
And maybe it's true
Beneath that smile, the heart may be wrenched
But no one will know
Because she doesn't show it
Because she doesn't want others to see it

2008-04-20T10:26:00.002+08:00

Arnd 3 weeks since I last posted. Haha. Been really busy with school and cca. And I'm super lagging in my tutorials. Anw, competition ended on tues, 15th April, which is also my birthday~ wahaha! It was a fab day lar, except for all those nervousness and stuff. We got 3rd and 4th for our weapon and quan group events respectively~ wahaha! And overall 4th placing for A'girls. The guys got 3rd placing~ Haha. Quite happy that both guys and girls got placing in the comp! Heex.

And they celebrated my birthday with me! Omgly happy and the cake looks super beautiful lar~ I like the gold ribbon!! Haha. But I think everyone was super full after dinner so cant really finish the cake. =X sorry. Anw, it was a fantastic day lar~ Bels JF and rasiah came down to watch the competition and the applied leave just for me lar! Haha. According to them anw.. =X haha. They are so gonna kick me. Thanks alot girls!! Love ya guys lotsa and thanks for the gift!

It was a fantabulous day in all~ for me at least. haha. Got medals, got placing and it's also my birthday~ haha.

Hmms.. But now that comp's over, there's like sth missing in my life kinda feeling. Haha. Don't have to worry about too many trainings then cant do hw and stuff. Sigh. Thinking back, although before comp I kept complaining that there's just too many trainings and I cant find time to do my hw, now that the comp's finally over, I kinda miss those periods of slogging my ass off, both for schwork and wushu. Sigh. Sounds kinda conradictory.

Like something's missing..

And I still have not found my calling.

2008-03-31T20:33:00.003+08:00

Homework piling up..
Comp. starting on wed..
Econ test next tues..
Detailed essay outline(=full essay) this fri..
Bin&Poi test tmr..

How am I going to finish everything?

They were like saying that this year's A's will be more difficult than last year's and Ah Hong they all were all like asking me to do consistent work and to not give up although it'll be damn sressful towards the end.

Can I really keep up?

I'm really in doubt.. Some friends of mine didn't do as expected for A's and they are like so much more hardworking and cleverer than me.

And this is batch is like sososososo much more competitive than the '89 batch. Can I match up to them.. and even out-perform them?

I don't know.. i think there's this added stress 'cos I'm a retainee. I failed once.. and what makes me so sure I won't repeat that agn..? I can't afford to like waste any more years.. If A's is a flop, it'll equate to me wasting 3 years of my life, which could've been better spent in a poly. And which will also mean that I made a super wrong choice to stick to the conventional path.

I know there's nothing much that I can do now but to stick it through. But there will always exist these recurring thoughts.. that I'm not cut out for such rigid education system. I still am not sure whether I've made a correct choice 3 years back, although so much time has since passed. And I'm scared of failure..

I need to find the will and perseverance and determination to carry on on this long journey..

2008-03-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

the wushu discussion about ex-co members made me pissed with some ppl at some points.. I think the girls are mostly on the same frequency but which is different from some of e guys. Really pissed can.. It's not our fault if they're not observant enough or at all during trainings and stuff.. what personalising. What shit is that. I'm just voicing my opinion and it has got nothing abt personalising. I have no comments whatsoever abt the person and it was a general comment based on what I observed. In any case, I'm not the only one who doesn't have a good impression of her. But that doesn't mean i hate her/don't like her or what.. I just don't think she has the quality of a leader. i don't get why they can rule one person out and at time say I'm personalising when I said I don't have a good impression of another. Where's the DISCUSSION gone to?

I hate it when ppl say I'm doing something when I'm not. I feel wronged. Wt..

IM NOT PERSONALISING.
open ur eyes wide and observe..

And please stop acting like a siant trying to give everyone a chance. Are you plain stewpig or just hypocritical? Chances can be given.. But ppl need time to change. We have no time. Period. And you can't judge a person based the surface.. on what they are.. but should really be abt who they are.

2008-03-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

What is my calling in life?

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2008-03-21T23:51:00.001+08:00

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2008-03-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

Rushed for my dental appt after school. Same proble back agn. It comes back to terrorize me every year.. and hopefully it'll stop soon.

The dentist was super nice and and stuff~ haha. Kept patting me and reassuring me it's ok. After she's looked at the problem area, she commented that the tooth had grown out a little and it's much better than last year, and then she reassured me agn that everthing's gonna be alright 'cos it's settling in. Haha. Like i'm some small little kid.. =P (although I'm going to be 19 in arnd a month's time.. ) It was kinda comforting the way she talked! Haha. Then after that she asked about my brother and I said he's currently working and she kinda asked why isn't he going to uni and stuf. then I sort of replied that my brother's results weren't all that fantastic and stuff lar..

Anw, I just wanna say the whole point is the last sentence she said to me before before I left the room..

"But your brother's more matured than you.. =D"

-.- I'm also very matured kays.. Just that I don't really feel like I'm 19 this year and I don't wanna grow up and stuff.. But I'm still a matured old teenager going-to-be young adult soon! =X

Haha.. Is that how others see me? As some lil kid..?
But it ain't all bad.. Nothing wrong with being like a kid.. And I think I act like a kid sometimes. Like my temper and tantrums and actions and stuff.. Haha.

Oh wells..

2008-03-16T18:00:00.002+08:00

I'm getting really bored with doing compres. Imgaine having to do one each day with that dumb AQ. Argh. Don't even have time to do the homework for the other subjects. Please spare a thought for us students.. You may only have to mark one subject's work (i mean you are looking at the same stuff..), but we are taking 5 subjects and that means it's x5 the workload. Please have mercy on us.

I think I'm going to flunk the Physics test real badly. Don't even have the time to leave my thumbprints on the lecture notes.

Save me...

2008-03-13T21:02:00.002+08:00

Doing my GP homeowrk now.. Feeling so sian. Didn't adhere to the timetable I drew up. For one, I overslept, then I fiddled with the computer. Getting kinda laggy. Argh. Only finished up the probability tut and file up the papers and had tuition which are like equal to doing near to zero homework. I'm scared I cant finish all my homework, especially since I've got quite a scary GP teacher.

Anyway, I'm quite happy and satisfied with my napfa scores. Haha. Didn't As it though. My 2.4 pulled me down so got a silver only. Haha. My stamina really sucks. Must go and train and slim down too! omg. Wahaha! But my 5 stations all As~~ hmms.. but my sit&reach was slightly less than last year and my sit-up wasn't as good. But! I'm extremely happy that my Standing broadjump and shuttle-run improved! haha. Jumped 197cm and ran 10.4s. Wahaha. But my cousin jumped 200+ back when we were sec4 -_-" but she can really jump la.. How i wish I got her tan2 tiao4 li4..

Wahaha. I've finished talkng about my napfa! so now i'll go back to doing my GP=> =(

2008-03-01T19:10:00.001+08:00

Took this from Jacq's blog. It's super true can..

牡羊座就像小孩子一樣好惡分明
不喜歡的他就不會假裝喜歡
喜歡的事物他會宣稱主權這是我的我喜歡的我要的
牡羊座的人不懂灰色地帶不喜歡曖昧也不了解
因此他們總是少了一份圓滑
對於他們認定的人他們總是掏心掏肺的把自己的內心赤裸裸的展現在對方的面前毫不保留
他們對認定的人會抱持著”就算全世界都背叛了琱]沒關係至少你不會”的想法

牡羊座就像小孩子一樣
期待渴望著別人的肯定跟鼓勵
在激烈的競賽之後
他們渴望的不是閃亮亮的金牌而是身旁響起的掌聲以及來自他人的那一句”你好棒”
成就感是牡羊座賴以維生的泉源
他們像小孩子一樣的愛現愛出風頭
但是他們的目的往往只是很單純的為了得到大家的讚賞
他們也喜歡撒嬌特別是在親近的人身邊
就像小孩子跟媽媽撒嬌一樣
只是希望媽媽會笑笑的摸摸他們的頭抱抱他們說對呀你好棒
物質上的獎勵或誘惑相較之下
牡羊座的人更追求精神上的勝利

牡羊座就像小孩子一樣
喜歡比較
但是他們的比較心理是為了突顯自己的好
而不是惡意的突顯他人的壞
我有你沒有
重點在於我有而不是你沒有
你很棒但是我會比你更棒
這是他們一慣秉持的信條

牡羊座就像小孩子一樣
不懂大人的複雜世界也不想懂也學不懂
他們很單純也因此常常受傷
他們不喜歡複雜的事物
可惜現實往往是複雜的令他們不知所措的
所以牡羊座的小孩哭了
他們不懂”愛哭的小孩有糖吃”的利用心態
他們哭只是單純的因為他們的感情起了波動的宣洩
他們哭只是單純的因為他們想哭

牡羊座就像小孩子一樣
跌跌撞撞
因為他們不懂得自我保護
因為他們太自然的相信外界
牡羊座的人會學乖
但往往是要在跌倒了受過傷之後
因此牡羊座的人總是傷痕累累
在痛過之後才懂得反省與後悔

牡羊座就像小孩子一樣
他們也懂得害怕
就像小孩子挑食一般
不喜歡吃的東西就是不肯吃
不想接近的事物就是不肯接近
儘管他們最討厭別人嘲笑他們是膽小鬼
牡羊座的人不喜歡別人勉強自己
就像小孩子的拗脾氣一樣牡羊座就像小孩子一樣
有著太多太多美麗的幻想
他們永遠是故事裡的小王子跟小公主-
永遠是受人愛戴敬佩讚賞的那個腳色
他們很單純也很好哄
而且不會貪得無饜
因為那就是他們生命中的一部份
如果有一天皇宮的夢想碎了
牡羊座的小孩會想
沒關係誰說王子公主一定要住在皇宮裡面
他們會繼續編織他們的美夢繼續相信
如果真的有那麼一天他們失去了作夢的能力
那麼這隻綿羊大概已經奄奄一息很難再站的起來了

牡羊座的人喜歡甜言蜜語
但是他們有自知之明
言不由衷的吹捧在他們的眼中是罪惡
虛假的甜美言詞和誠懇的苦澀告白
他們會選擇後者
因為牡羊座是很”真”的星座
他們一向很真的對人
也一向期待別人能很真的對他們

牡羊座
愛就是大膽大聲的說出來
不在意別人的眼光
愛上了就是自己的
不管男生或是女生
他們不喜歡腳踏兩條船
但是他們渴望眼中僅有的這個人能像他一樣赤裸的為他付出
只要如此他們就會滿足
牡羊座不需要高級而昂貴的禮物
他們要的是禮物背後的那顆心
禮輕情意重只要有情牡羊座就能夠繼續活在愛情之中
他們要的只是一句問候
一封短訊
一個帶他去看星星的小小驚喜
他們就會感覺擁有了全世界
牡羊座害怕被冷落
他們不需要猛烈的大火
但是他們需要一定持續的恆溫
很多人覺得牡羊座的愛情是愛慕虛榮始終熊熊大火的猛烈
他們錯了
牡羊座也渴望踏實而穩定的步伐
他們不需要鮮紅的玫瑰花束
只需要一個擁抱溫柔的牽手
一句情人節快樂以及一顆真心
他們不需要高級餐廳的燭光晚餐
兩個人一起吃泡麵也能夠是深深打動他的情人節大餐
牡羊座的愛情
物質永遠比不上精神上的感動
想用物質買走牡羊座的心很難
但是要讓牡羊座感動卻很簡單
對於緣分
牡羊座是寧缺勿濫
他們要的是很真很專一的一顆心
而不是速食愛情
牡羊座是懂得感恩的星座
對他付出他必定會對你回報
而且是不遺餘力毫不保留的回饋
一旦他認定了你

牡羊座的心很軟
即使他們有時看似咄咄逼人又強硬
但是在剛硬的外表之下卻是一隻軟綿綿的綿羊
牡羊座是擁有萬分柔情的星座
只要你能穿過他堅硬的外殼
觸碰到他內在柔軟的那顆心
會是最好的情人

2008-03-01T18:13:00.003+08:00

I just discovered yesterday that this year is a leap year.. How slow can I be.. =X But at least I got to know that my watch ain't oo advanced 'cos it showed yesterday as march 1.

Anyway, didn't go for training yesterday 'cos wasn't feeling all that well. Had a slight fever but strong me has since recoverd. Yesterday was like the first time I had fever in at least three years. haha. But zaza told me that it's better for us to get sick once in a while so that the body can get rid of all those bad stuff in the body. Hmms.. But being sick is not nice. And it was kinda retarded yesterday 'cos we were supposed to have this timed practice during GP lesson and I did the wrong compre. Was like thinking it can't be 2007's compre cos we shld have done it before then I went to cut out the 2006's. Was too dumb and slow to realise that those compres in the book would be all unfamiliar to us and done by the prev batch instead. ARGH. So had to do an entire compre agn! Super waste of time. Lucky Daljit didn't ask us to hand it in or she'll be sure to make mincemeat out of me. ugh. mincemeat.

Anw, have lotsa hw to complete over the weekends! SHIT all the hw. 2 essays and 1 AQ for GP, 1 econs essay, EM tut, the aldehyde topic's tut, probabilty tut, and needa study for the chem test next week!! ARGH! why can't e teachers spare us just for a week. And still have trainings.. where got time do..

Anw, my mom doesn't want me to take part in competition and she keeps urging me to tell that to coach. Hmms.. I don't know what to do and what i want. Like I don't mind not doing the ind. event but I wanna take part in the group event.. Haha. But the amount of training time will still be the same. And, I'm so not looking forward to the camp during the 1 week march hol. SianX3 by it. not at all excited abt it..

Shall go back to writing my essay now..

2008-02-17T02:20:00.004+08:00

I just went to watch this short video on Youtube where some Taiwanese artistes were poking fun or discussing about the way we speak. I don't think it's the accent prob 'cos like if we do have a Singaporean accent and that's the problem about it, then I think they're the ones with some problems.. hey, it's Singapore.. What's wrong with having a Singaporean accent. Can there only exist American and British accents? And anyway, if I'm not wrong, there's 2 ways to ponouncing "dance". One is the American way and the other is the British, and we follow the latter. So we don't pronounce it like "dans".

Don't know whether to laugh or feel insulted after watching the video clip. =P I didn't realise we speak like that. Hmms.. But I think most Singaporeans generally don't speak like that, 'cos i haven't really encounter any. Either that or they are exaggerating, or I suffer from memory loss. haha.. I mean, there's bound to be some who don't speak as well but I believe they exist in every society.

I don't deny that my English is not all that fantastic, and I don't speak as eloquently as I should be. (Damn!)

(At least I'm heeding my GP teacher's advice and trying to converse in English more often.)

Took this from Wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Standard_English

"According to Peter Trudgill), Standard English is that set of grammatical and lexical forms which is typically used in speech and writing by educated native speakers. It includes the use of colloquial and slang vocabulary, as well as swear words and taboo expressions." This definition is also often used by American linguists. Most linguists recognise that the notion of a standard English that covers all native speakers, educated or not, would be very difficult to articulate.

This definition refers to grammar and vocabulary and not to pronunciation. Trudgill claims that Standard English is only spoken by a very small part of the population of the British Isles (about 12-15%). This means it is spoken by an even smaller fraction of all native speakers. Further, Standard English speakers often speak in regional and class accents. One might expect that Standard English speakers would use a particular pronunciation, for example Received Pronunciation (RP) in the UK, or General American in the US. In fact, less than a third of the speakers of UK Standard English have an RP accent, with the rest of the speakers using their own regional accents, which shows that standard dialect and regional accent do not exclude each other. In the US, regional variations in pronunciation are somewhat less than the UK; many Americans speak with a General American pronunciation. However regional dialect variations are intensifying according to the research of William Labov. Trudgill concludes in this matter, that "Standard English is a dialect that differs from the others in that it has greater prestige, does not have an associated accent and does not form part of a dialect continuum". Hence, Standard English is purely a social dialect."

Our intonation is affected in way too, i guess.

Anw, I'm not trying to sow discord or what, but merely voicing my thoughts. Although our standard of English may not be all that good, but I think it's still better than most Taiwanese. And I can't really fathom why some artistes like to claim to know English when they don't really. To me, knowing a word or two, or even forming a few simple sentences in that language doesn't qualify one as knowing how to speak and understand that language. You must be able to converse reasonably well in that language =X

Makes me think of GP.. I need a miracle in that subject. And I need to expand my bank of vocabulary!

2008-01-17T15:29:00.000+08:00

In the school lib now.. My com is down and I can't go online. =(
And I think it's my fault 'cos apparently there's a virus in my thumbdrive. Argh. I can't talk about my teacher in the blog! Argh. Hmms. I feel she's biased. whatever.

Anw, bought 2 sets of clothes for cny alrady. They're kinda weird. Haha. Hope my mama brings me out to buy clothes for cny agn~

2007-12-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

Went to Bel's house in the morning and the first thing I saw when I stepped into her house was JF and Rasiah playing bowling with Wii. Super funny to see them with the actions lar! Haha. Anw, I tried my hands on the boxing game and it's super fun! But it's tiring on the arms 'cos you really have to aim and punch.. and keep punching for 3 three rounds~ haha. Was sweating profusely after the game! haha. Should go her house more often for the "exercise". haha. And later we tried this game called Trauma Center or sth.. It's super nice and fun~ You are like a doctor and you have to put antibiotic gel on the wounds, suture the wounds, take out glass shards, perform resuscitation with the debrillator and what not! I can't be a real doctor.. So at least I can be a virtual doctor~ Haha. Being a doctor isn't easy. Haha.

Anw, Bels game me some help on my GP essay~ Forwarded me some info and articles on the topic I'm writing. Thanks girl!! Love ya lotsa!

I've only completed half of a content para for the 2 essays and AQ for GP. So sucky.

And Bels and JF got us a really nice and thoughtful gift each for christmas~ And thanks KY for the card.. and clip. Haha.

Anw, should be going for bbq only for 2two chalet. No time.. And I'm meeting Sarah and Tim they all before that~~ Haha.

And I really really like Mikey!!! OMG.. I'm so mad about him. Haha.

Okay, he's my type~ wahaha!!!!!!

*crazy*

2007-12-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Malaysia~ Bought some stuff, but not alot 'cos we didn't stay at the shopping centre for a very long time lar. Kena suanned by my sis for looking fat and short when I tried on a pair of bermudas.. Tooted. I know that.. You don't have to spell it out for me.

Anw, ate quite a lot of stuff larh.. think put on weight yet agn. Sianned by that fact.

Okay. Im lazy to type agn.

2007-12-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

Went for some Koon San stuff yesterday and we went back like super late lar.. Nearly couldn't catch a bus back. We stupidly waited for a bus at the wrong bus stop, but luckily a lady commented that the bus we were about to board wasn't going to AMK. Lucky lar.. Then we rushed to the correct bus stop and managed to take the correct bus bakc to AMK. ZhengEn took a cab home while kr and I tried our luck at the bus stops to see whet there's any last bus/es heading to yishun. Apparently there's only NR1 available.. And we had to wait super long for it to arrive. ARGH! and it's like 3bucks lar! For such a short ride I had to pay 3bucks! KR and I were like hoping for it to go a big round around Lentor or sth before headiong for Yishun Int again just so our 3bucks would seem justified.. But it didn't! Anw, I decided to call my dad after I alighted to see if he's willing to fetch me home. He didn't want to initially! But guilt got the better of him and he called back to ask me to wait for him. yay~

Okay, Im lazy to continue typing.. hahaz.

2007-12-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

Got back from wushu chalet on Wednesday but was too lazy to post anything. (Yeah Rasiah and JF, we do wushu during the chalet..-_-") Wells, the chalet was all about rotting, rotting and more rotting! There weren't any activities planned for us to do.. At least last year we had the treasure hunt, capt's ball and soccer. But this year we had NONE! It's like omg-ly rotting. I think Coach was too preoccupied with his new gf that he relegated the task of coming up activities to the Cath High peeps. But you know.. Of course zero plans surfaced. If it were us, I think we wouldn't come up with aything too.

And the bbq on the second night was super unorganised and alot of us almost didn't have food. We resorted to microwaving the food can.. And pestering The Cath High peeps for food.

I GET SUER PISSED WHEN I DON'T GET MY FOOD!!!

I THINK I showed KR my fist when I told him we wanted food/hadn't got food. Can't really remember though.. If I did, I'm sorry for that! (not that he's going to read this.. Haha.)

People, Don't let me be pissed. Give me my food.

Couldn't really get a place to sleep on the 2nd night. So anw, we played cards, went out to walk etc. and got tuna, shi jie and this other guy from Cath High to teach us how to play the Rubik cube. I'm omg-ly slow 'cos the most I can get is the white top and the first layer. I don't wanna memorise how to do the 2nd layer.. It's like you'll forget it. It's better to know the mechanism behind and know how to turn it no matter how complicated it looked! So yeah.. My brain is quite retarded.

And I didn't know Coach and Stacy are so close to the extent of sleeping together on the same bed and Stacy feeding Coach food lar! OMG-ly shocking.

Enough of the chalet..

The WA went to watch Golden Compass at AmkHub yesterday~ I thought it's quite a nice show! haha. And we came down to Bels's house after that. I watched Heroes until around Chapter 10 or 11. Can't rem..

II'm feeling super lazy.. Don't feel like writing anymore. Haha.

Shall go do some Arenes tut. I haven't touch math and physics and econs and GP, and I've only got around 2 weeks more. My teachers are so gonna strangulate me.

2007-12-01T10:11:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is Red

Of all the brain types, yours is the most impulsive.
If you think it, you do it. And you can get the bug to pursue almost any passion.
Your thoughts are big and bold. Your mind has no inhibitions.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about love, your dreams, and distant places.

What Color Is Your Brain?

You Are a Fierce Femme

You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right.
But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check.
In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it...
You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

Are You a Daring Woman?

o.0 I'm a shu nv..

You Are the Middle Finger

A bit fragile and dependent on your friends, you're not nearly as hostile as you seem.
You are balanced, easy to get along with, and quite serious.
However, you can get angry and fed up with those around you. And you aren't afraid to show it!

You get along well with: The Index Finger

Stay away from: The Pinky

What Finger Are You?

You Are 56% Good

You are a fairly good person. You strive to live a moral life whenever possible.
You are usually kind, generous, and loyal. However, you do have a dark side that even you may not see.
When it comes down to ethical decisions, you tend to take the path of least resistance.
So you may end up lying, cheating, or engaging in other bad behavior... because it's just easier to do so.

You are also probably: Conflicted and confused about the current course of your life

Right now you are on track to being: A slightly crooked politician

To be a better person: Break one bad habit - whether it's telling white lies or spending too much money.

How Good Are You?

What Guys Think of Your Medium Straight Hair...

Smart, optimistic, easy going.
You're the thinking man's ideal woman - bright, funny, and no drama.

What Do Guys Think Of Your Hair?

You Communicate Like a Woman

You empathize, talk things out, and express your emotions freely.
You're a good listener, and you're non-judgmental with your advice.
Communication is how you connect with people.
You're always up for a long talk, no matter how difficult the subject matter is.

Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?

Yeah.. I know I'm a woman/lady/shu nv

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows.
You don't believe in love at first sight, and you never mistake lust for love.
For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.
You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.

Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily

Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

This is superbly true.. I don't like commitments in the first place, but if I really do commit myself.. yeah

Your Learning Style: Practical and Cooperative

You like to test out what you learn, and you excel when you can jump right in and try something.

You Should Study:

Dentistry
Environmental Science
Fashion Merchandising
Interior Design
International Studies
Marketing
Medicine
Music
Nursing
Criminal Justice
Physical Therapy

What Should You Study?

Hmms.. I'm interested in most of them.. Haha.

You Are 48% Lady

You're part lady, part modern woman.
Etiquette is important to you, but you brush aside rules that are outdated or silly.

Are You A Lady?

Nvm.. lady=woman=samesame

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.
You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.
But you sure can beat a good drum.
"Kill! Kill!"

The Muppet Personality Test

-.-" I where got so scary can.. Im a demure girl..

2007-12-01T09:50:00.000+08:00

Finished SL on thursday and actually, the last day of SL was quite okay. No one really gave me any trouble and piss me off, probably because I'm a station I/C so ain't in contact with the same kids for a long time.. haha. Kinda miss them a lil now.. And SL with my class is fun! Loving my class more and more.. Haha.

Anw, went running in the gym with Diana after SL!! I can't believe I ran 2.4km in 1 short without stopping! Wahaha. But it's at a slower speed than when running for napfa. After that I tried the gym equipments~ haha. I wanna go gymming again.. =D

Went to my cousin's place after gymming~ Ate alotta stuff and talked with my aunt.. Haha. I like the layout of the house and my cousin's room!! Sigh.. I also want a room like that.. =(

Shall end now and post up some quizzes I did~

SL

2007-11-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

We had our 2nd class pool session yesterday~ It wasn't as orderly as the first time and we sorta heck towards the end.. At least that's the case for me.. =P Lol~ But I enjoyed myself immensely! =D super fun can~~ haha. So funny and stuff! I want play more pool!!!

Anw, today is the 2nd day of our SL and our dear Kelvin pissed me off totally. He didn't want to follow instructions and kept doing his own stuff, and he's like pri4 already. Should be a lil' more amtured. But they were like saying MAYBE he lacks attention at home, so he wants to have more attention or maybe that's his way of protecting himself. But, being a super impatient person, I can't tolerate this kinda behaviour! So I took the pikachu Wei-Chun drew and told him that if he doesn't listen and follow instructions, I'm going to take the pikachu away. He tried to snatch it back, but of course to no avail. Then he said he's going to tell his mom, and I retort back with "you tell lor".. I'm pissed can. I can't stand kids who don't listen and be a good lil boy/girl, and those who cry alot! I'm not good with kids and I only like those obedient guai1 guai1 kids. So anw, he didn't want to talk to me after that but that's like okay with me lar. So I ended up drawing my own stuff and wasting their marker ink. I ddin't talk or care about the kids in my group much and the only thing I did was to draw huiting's name and decorate it. I'm too pissed to interact with others. Omg lar. I'm not ever going to be a teacher.. And hopefully I won't work with kids again.. I'm too impatient for their own good.

2007-11-23T09:26:00.000+08:00

01/07's chalet ended on Wednesay. Slept really little can.. And I was kinda like a zombie walking when I went out later in the afternoon on wed to meet Jacq and Shirlynn. Went around town to look for dress for prom. I've decided to buy this dress online.. I'm too lazy to go out and buy le lar.. But hope the dress will be alright 'cos it's not really easy to judge online.. Haha.

Went out to study with Joanne and Diana yesterday.. But I ended up reading only like 3 pages of Arenes notes. I cant find the motivation in me to sit down and study!!

Came over to Bels's house yesterday night and I think I'm leaving in 1+ hr time to meet Jacq Shirlynn and Ah pIng to buy Selene's prezzie. Going for Selene's bdae chalet together with 01/06 later~ Haha. So long nvr see them le.. Miss them can! Haha.

Okay.. I go back to my blog shopping.. haha.. =D

2007-11-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

Wushu training today.. I'm super not flexible now after such a long break. *sigh* Anw, just completed the first set of my new routine, the broadsword~ WAHAHA!!! I like Dao1 more than changquan I think.. But i must make myself love both routines so I can da3 de2 gen4 hao3! And I think for the weapon group event rites, we'll be doing sword lar.. But only 6 ppl will get to da3. Not very sure if I'll be one of the six peeps not 'cos I think I can't really da jian de.. Like totally the opp. can.. Dao and jian.. Haha.

Anw, I like the song I'm learning now~~ Nostalgy. The song is nice..

And I finally completed my chem hol hw, after like 1 month..

2007-10-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

The intra-class pool competition was carried out rather successfully today~ Wahaha. It's kinda fun to play with everyone and laugh at the stewpig stuff some of us did.. Esp. JinHui.. Lame until cannot.. Haha. And I wanna win Kian Song and Cassandra!! Lost to them.. and I wanna play with more people!! haha. We played from 1230pm to 6pm! Uberly fun~ Yi Xiang won the competition.. And his prize.. pay the excess for our pool charges! WAHAHA!! So evil of us..

I'm thinking of planning a monthly pool ocmpetition.. At least for the next 2 months. Think it's gonna be fun.

Can't wait for chalets and SL.. And I wanna work!!! Spent like at least 550 bucks in Oct lar.. Extremely broke.. Wondering how I'm going to survive without much money for the chalets.

2007-10-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

I've been doing some thinking these few days, mainly 'cos I don't have much stuff to do what with the rest doing OP. Hmms.. I discovered that I do actually regret quite a few things that I did, and choices I made. Sigh.. I'm nvr a good decision-maker, and more often than not, I regret making those choices..

And I feel like I'm leading an aimless life.. No goal, no aspiration.. Nothing at all. I haven't found anything that I'm really passionate about, a subject that strongly interest me or what.. Everyday, it feels like I'm doing nothing constructive, nothing that I really really love doing.. Since I haven't found anything that I really like doing.. -_-"

Life seems so... goaless... so directionless to me.. I've absolutely no idea where I'm headed or where I'll end up.. or even where I want to go..

Why is that so..?

Today's people..

2007-10-21T19:12:00.000+08:00

Are today's children becoming stupider or more spoilt? Read Sunday Times and there was an article about people complaining that the PSLE math paper was difficult, and they gave 3 examples of e math questions. And there was this retired teacher complaining that it's too tough for the average student.. Please, if there ain't any tough questions, how are they going to differentiate between the average students and those brighter students? If so, we won't need to have PSLE, O's and A's anymore.. 'Cos everyone will be able to do the questions. It defeats the purpose of having such major examinations.

And it's not that I want to say, but that particular retired teacher should go for re-training, or practise more math questions.. We shouldn't be too complacent and think that we'll retain all our knowledge and our mind will still be as agile when we do not constantly work to keep it active. He said he took like arnd 19 minutes to complete the 3 questions with the help of a calculator, when an 11 year old could do it under 20 minutes.. Don't know how long i took to do e questions myself 'cos I did it while watching the tv, but my brother told me he took under 10 minutes to finish them. Maybe I took a longer time.. =P Haha. Ain't as clever..

But the thing is.. I feel that teachers, students and parents alike, shouldn't be complaining that exam questions are too difficult. I mean, do you have to be able to do all the questions present to deem the paper as a suitable paper? And what's an examination paper without any difficult qn? If we can't do a paper, or even a question, we should take it in our stride and not go around complaining that it's TOO difficult. And actually, the fact that we can't do the question/s tells us that we ain't prepared enough, that we didn't cover enough ground. We should instead work on gaining more knowledge and experience so that if such questions were to come up again, we can do them with ease and proudly proclaim to the world that "Yes! I know how to do 'em questions!" We should work on equipping ourselves with more and better knowledge, and not putting the blame on the questions being too difficult.

And anyway, we can't expect our education system to be stagnanting when the rest of the world is progressing. What's aplicable now may not be applicable in the future. (Not that I like the education system.. Especially the JC curriculum..) And I heard that they are changing the JC syllabus in 2009 because the current one is too difficult!! OMG lar.. Actually I wouldn't mind an easier syllabus you know.. Maybe MOE can change sooner then allow us not to learn as much stuff in J2? Haha.

Fat Hope!

I don't know what's becoming of our society.. Where we complain about nearly everything and put the blame on other things, nvr reflecting on ourselves.

And I think coming up with an intra-class pool competition would be fun.. Haha. I seriously think that the favourite sport in my class in pooling..

2007-10-20T12:03:00.001+08:00

Saw the final mark sheet on Thursday.. Apparently they moderated my math and econs grades from S to E, so now I pass all 5 subjects.. CDEEE.. Ain't all that fantastic.. But it's the first time I pass so many subjects!!! Wahaha! Everytime I at most pass 2 subjects.. Mid-Yr I passed physics and GP only. Omg.. First time I passed all my subjects since O's.. Haha.

But we've got lotsa holiday assignments, esp. physics. Still hafta come up with a demonstration for physics.. But oh wells, i should be glad thay I'm able to promote.. =D

2007-10-17T14:31:00.000+08:00

Hmms.. Got back results for the promos yesterday. It was really a nerve-wrecking experience can? 'Cos I know I really need to be promoted this time or else I'll be like wasting 2 years and my mama's "I told ya to go poly.. you chose this route yourself.." will come and haunt me.. Okay, results ain't fantastic but still can promote.. Got C D E S S for GP, Chem, Physics, Math and Econs respectively. Okay, I think it's quite lousy compared to what Za and the rest got, but still, it's kind of an improvement from last year's D E U U U, with all 3 H2 subjects getting U. But I can't slack off now.. My sec sch tuition teacher nagged at me again when he came over to give my sis tuition. He was like saying the horse year is a strong batch and they'll provide stiff competition, and they are cleverer and faster in grasping concepts.. It's only a matter of whether they want to play or stay concentrated and study.. And which means I hafta work doubly hard if I want to compete with them during the A's. I think what he said is true from what I see.. It's like you can see quite a number of people getting 3As.. I know my class got at least 2.

Haix.. I hafta start studying and brushing up my math or else my tuition teacher will give me shit when he starts teaching me again and discover that I know nothing about math.

And I really hope that everyone in my class can promote and all 25 of us can stay and be in the same class next year..

2007-10-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the official last day of school for the J2s, and school started with a farewell assembly in the morning. After farewell assembly, Mer HuiQi and I went to do some duty in the library before going to find the 01/06-ers.. They gave us choco to eat~ haha. Mrs Low bought them these big pencil boxes and put food for them and they shared some with us~ =D haha. Didn't take any pix though.. They started doing math paper 1 by 1. haha. Jia You!!

Took quite a lotta pix with the wushu peeps though~ Daryl, Teng, Tracy and I went to KFC to eat after that.. The rest couldn't join us 'cos they've got class programmes or other stuff on. Talked and crap and got a maid in the end~~ =D haha.. We went back to school for open house after lunch.

I'll miss seeing the J2s in school.. the 01/06-ers and wushu peeps..

When I first got into AJ, I was kinda sad and feeling down 'cos I knew practically no one in the class and many already knew each other in the class 'cos they were from the 1st-intake. But once we got to know each other, we played and crapped and everything together and it really brought me lotsa joy. Crapping with Ah Liang, Nai ge and Ah Ping in Math lesson.. Gossiping with Shirlynn and Jacq during breaks and sometimes during lectures.. Talking about BB, HS, Hello2, and others.. =P Crapping with Selene.. PW-ing.. I feel fortunate and glad to be able to know the 01-06-ers..

And I decided not to continue with dance after being in it for 10 years, and joined wuhsu instead. Being with the wushu peeps really makes me feel super happy.. All the PT-ing and training.. Hard though it is, but sweating it out together, encouraging each other to persevere and looking out for each other feel great.. The competition.. The stayovers at both Daryl's places.. The wushu chalet.. Having dinner together after training and talking until it's late and we hafta rush home.. And alotta other stuff.. The wushu family makes me feel at home.. that there's somewhere I belong.

love ya guys.. Life wouldn't be the same without all you guys..
All the best for A's.. Chiong all the way!!

On a different note, I'm really scared about tuesday.. I'm an escapist and I don't wanna go to school on tues. I don't know what I'll do if I really can't make it..

2007-10-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

Finished promos on Friday but didn't feel at all happy after the paper. I was angry at myself for not knowing how to do the whole damned paper when the questions are oh-so-similar to those in the PJC paper and tys. And the thing is.. I did those kinda questions before and i know how to do them. But all my answers came out weird and stuff and the most important thing is - I screwed up the whole paper. I like Physics the most out of the 3 sciences subjects that I take and I practised and studied the most for it, and in the end I had to go and screw it all up.

I'm not confident of getting promoted. But I really want to promote 'cos it's a super waste of time to like spend 2 years in JC and end up having to go poly for another 3 years. I don't know why I'm wasting my life away like that..

Sometimes, I really detest the way I do things..
Why can't I live everyday to the fullest?
Why can't I live without regretting the stuff I did?
Why can't I be responsible?
Why can't I learn from past mistakes?
Why can't I be a more decisive person?
Why can't I change?

2007-08-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

I wanna go ice skating again!!! Wahaha.

Anw, I simply dread GP lessons! The teacher is so demanding, and keeps asking us to re-do our work. Sometimes I feel that she belittles us and think we're some kid who haven't got any idea what she's doing in our class. Slapstick humour and all.. Her favourite word has to be "Re-Do!" Argh

Ive got so much hw to complete by tonight!!! Shitty pie.

And I must be able to promote this year!!! 'Cos my mom says she'll allow me to have a piano if I promote, and I so want one.

And we learnt those hua1 for the cymbal in lion dance~~ And I learnt some drum one too!! Wahaha. I'm so happy!

Some personality test

2007-08-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

energetic, self-assertive, sentimental, spontaneous

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

calm, clever, complex, confident, dignified, friendly, giving, helpful, independent, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, logical, mature, observant, powerful, quiet, trustworthy, warm, wise

Façade

(known only to self)

cheerful, extroverted

Unknown

(known to nobody)

able, accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, caring, dependable, happy, idealistic, ingenious, intelligent, loving, modest, nervous, organised, patient, proud, reflective, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-conscious, sensible, shy, silly, sympathetic, tense, witty

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (20%) caring (0%) cheerful (0%) clever (20%) complex (20%) confident (20%) dependable (0%) dignified (20%) energetic (20%) extroverted (0%) friendly (40%) giving (20%) happy (0%) helpful (20%) idealistic (0%) independent (20%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (0%) introverted (20%) kind (40%) knowledgeable (20%) logical (20%) loving (0%) mature (20%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (20%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (20%) proud (0%) quiet (40%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (20%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (20%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (20%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (40%) warm (20%) wise (20%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 3.8.2007, using data from 5 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view nyukmin's full data.

2007-07-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

Went to AMKHub's Cathay to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix with Bels, Jia Fanf, Rasiah and Shuyi. The show's ok only lar.. Not as good as I expected. Anyway, after the show, when we were walking out of Cathay, I saw this guy using one of the computers over there, blatantly watching.. porn? or at least 3/4 porn-ness I think? I was like.. OMG lar.. CATHAY leh!!! Such an open space somemore.That guy must be super despo..

Got home and Brother lent me the Ninetendo DS LIte he borrowed from friend for me to try out. Think I'll settle for Nintendo DS Lite instead of PSP. Prefer the games in Nintendo, and anyway, my brother's got PSP already, so when I wanna play the games in his PSP I can at least "trade" with him. Haha.

Haven't done anything productive today.. argh

Things to do when you're bored.. =P

2007-07-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually?
You tend to like to make calculated risks.
So while you may not be base jumping any time soon...
You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Exploring

You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name.
You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs.

An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles.
You show people how to question their models of the world.

What's Your Thinking Style?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.
You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Feminine Are You?

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

Am I? Haha.. =X

Your Learning Style: Practical and Cooperative

What Should You Study?

You Are 18 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Ain't that my actual age.. =D

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

You Are 48% Grown Up, 52% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature.
You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

2007-07-12T18:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAASANDRA!!! haha. Hope ya had a fantastic day yeah? =D

Went to BMTC - Basic Military Training Centre yesterday. Glad that I didn't miss the chance of going there~~ Love the trip. Haha. I thought the buildings there will be all dilapidated and all but apparently they have rather good facilities over there. Haha. And the food there was better than I tought. Very much better. Haha. To think they still have desserts in those food ration packaging. And I like the Standard Obstacle Course (SOC)!!! I wanted to try all the stations but didn't dare to in front of so many people.. I like to try all these obstacles stuff!! I think they're fun lar.. And we got to try our hands at shooting in their simulated firing range!! Love that place!! Omg. I think army's not as bad as some made them out to be.. I may consider joining the army if not for the running. I hate running. Haha. And some funny stuff happened over there but I'm too lazy to type now.. haha.

Anyway, got back all my results except for the esaay part of Econs. My grades sucks like shit lar.. CDSU.. And just when my impression of my Chem teacher is improving a teeny bit, she had to destroyed the slightly better image I've built of her. May she by some miracle turn into a much better person. That shouldn't be how a teacher should behave..

2007-07-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

Took my first ride on a bike on Sunday~ Coach drove me over to AMK mrt station from Hougang since he was going there. And I forgot to thank him for the ride, I think? haha. The ride was okay actually.. Kinda different from being in a car. Haha. I think he was going at a real slow pace compared to his usual speed 'cos I could open my eyes and look around with the visor(?) up. And stewpig me didn't know how to get on, and off the bike, and how to wear the helmet. Haha. I think the helmet's kinda heavy? But anyway, actually wanted to learn the ba from Teng de.. But ended up leaning how to da gu.. I like leh.. Haha.

Had our first GP lesson with the new GP teacher. She's the HOD lar! Don't really like her! She's kinda demanding larh.. There's so many zillion stuff to complete for her by tomorrow!!! I'm hoping the new Econs teacher is not like her. *Prays hard* And the first Chemistry lesson of Term3 today made me change my opinion of Jean Lee a little~ She isn't so bad if she's not in one of her crazy modes lar. Found today's lesson kinda productive in a way.

And I think Joanne is desperately in love with Jean Lee..

We've got new PDG tutor, GP tutor, Econs tutor, and somewhat new Physics tutor.. Random..

Self-denial and Psycho-ing in Progress

2007-06-21T17:13:00.000+08:00

I know I shouldn't be here. I should be off mugging like a madwoman now.. Sigh. I wish I have more time; I can't finish studying all the subjects. Argh. I'm still left with 5 sets of notes for Chemistry, 1 for Physics, and I haven't touched anything for GP, Econs and Math. And of those that I've gone through, I'm not sure if I can apply them to solve the questions 'cos like I've only READ through them. I know my Math is a goner for sure; I can't even do the normal tutorial questions.

Anyway, just watched this show on AXN - Homeless to Harvard. I think it's quite a nice, and to add to it, it's a true story. The hardwork and determination that Liz exihibited in order to break out of the cycle of poverty was kinda inspiring. I mean we are really fortunate compared to her. Her parents both do drugs, her mom died of AIDS and her dad's living with it. She's got to fight for her chance to study (while I'm like wastng my time away in school.) When she finally was able to go to shcool, she had to get her dad to lie about having a job and giving them bogus address and phone number. She had to work and study at the same time and earn her scholarship so she can go on to college. And she was able to work her way to Harvard. I think it's kinda amazing.. and she thinks she's fortunate and her past are a part of her. I think if I were in her shoes, I'd probably have died or waste my entire whole life away or what not.

I need to change myself..

But I'm like always saying this and doing the other way..

Anyway, I seem to have an inkling of what I wanna do in the future. I wanna have a job that helps and save children. Maybe not in the literal sense of saving, but.. I don't know.. Maybe I'll search around and see what courses are there..

I've been thinking.. Much as I don't wanna grow up, it's a fact and natural process that I can do nothing about. I'm already 18, and I think that's really old 'cos it's going to be starting with a '2' soon. I can't continue playing and wasting my life away. I'll ultimately have to go out to work and blahblahblah. I won't be 18 forever. So why am I wasting my life by not studying now? I have to do something to decide my own future and not wait for fate or whatever to dictate what I'm going to be. If I don't study, it's clear what will become of me. I'm not like those pople who have lots of drive and determination and entrepreneurship and what not, and can succeed in life even if they don't have a degree. Even with a degree I may not even succeed. My ex tuition teacher said this to me: Do you want to get good results and choose the course you want, or let the course choose you? Of course choosing the course you want and to get into it is the best. Why get results that are not good, and had to be disappointed time and again until there's a course that has a vacancy 'cos not many want to be in it? And that's the course you get in.. And it's not what you want. It's better to be able to decide for yourself where you wanna go in the future instead of letting the course steer you into your future path.

I've been thinking about these quite alot before I sleep each night.

I think this post is more of like something to psycho myself to really get down to work. I need to psycho myself hard.

2007-06-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
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Expo

2007-05-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today is a happy day~~ Went for piano at noon and i learnt faster than I expected. Wahaha. Didn't practise at all but overall still okay~ =X Now holiday must practise more! Anyway, went to Ubi after that to get my phone back! I passed it to Teng along with the comics I wanted her to help me return to Coach. Like really very spas. Haha. Played a lil drum over there then went to get the rest of the comics from Coach. Haha. Dad went to Ubi to get me so we can go Expo.

Actually we wanted to go for the Navy open house, and I really wanted to 'cos my brother is in navy, then I wanted to visit the place where my brother spent most of his time in, but there were too many people wanted to go so they sort of stopped allowing people in. I think it's like 'cos the naval base is a military ground then can only allow a certain number of people in at a time. Sigh. I wanted to visit so very much lar. But anyway, we went to the Food Expo instead. Ate alot of stuff!! Omg. Put on kilos again. I like cheese tofu!!! Haha. Went to the MPH bookfair after that. Bought like 6 novels I think? Yay~~ After paying fort he books, we went to the Guardian's fair, but there wasn't really anything that interested me, so went some Mala-noodle eartery over there. I like their prawn noodle lar!!!!! The prawns are big and juicy! And I like their soup. =D

Yumin is a happy and satisfied person today!

2007-05-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

Went to school today for college day and I can't believe I forgot to bring my phone out. But actually, living without a phone for a day isn't too bad. The only inconvenient thing about it is that you can't really call anyone as and when you like. Anyway, I thought I'll be late but saw KangRui on the bus and when we reached the school, only 3 ppl had arrived.. The rest were late la! haha. We had to wait so long for college day to start and we only played lion dance for like.. eh.. maybe 2 minutes?! Like so spas.. Haha. Then the minister smiled at us and I wanted to laugh out loud lar!! But I restrained myself and must've looked stewpig in doing so.

Teng and I met SuWen after that to go Chinatown. Teng wanted to make glasses and I think her new specs are nice~~ Went to People's Park Complex after that 'cos I wanted to see if they still sell the DDR mats but it seems to have gone totally out of fashion. Haha.. Just suddenly feel like buying one after seeing the DDR booth set up by one of the classes during Family Day. After that we parted ways with Teng and Suwen accompanied me to Bukit Batok. Went around West Mall to buy Suwen's stuff before I went to check my contacts. They got my degree wrong for my contacts for the left eye! And the person was asking me if I had requested to make my left eye's contact lens to be of lesser degree than the actual. If I had wanted lesser degree, i would've requested for both eye's contacts to be lesser lar? And furthermore, I didn't know we can wear contacts lens that ain't actually suitable for our eye degree. =X I mean.. won't it spoil the eyes? haha.

And I bought a birthday present for my Sis for the first time~~ Wahaha. What a bad sister I am~! For the past years, it's either I don't give any, or I dig out something that I haven't use and give it to her. Haha. =X I'm so evil!!! Ok.. I shall TRY to be a better person now.. =P

2007-05-11T14:09:00.000+08:00

In the school comp. lab now.. Can't blog ffrom my comp at home lar.. Haix.

It's such a sad week. I failed my 2.4km, Phsics, Chem and Math tests were total flops, wushu kena blasted by one of our teachers-in-charge, and I just discovered that I somehow managed to squash my cam and now the screen is spoiled. You can still take pics, but you can't see anything see anything. It's like.. SPOILT! I'm ultra sad lar.. Bought the cam this year only. The lucky thing is, my mom bought the international warranty or some kinda warranty stuff that says if the cam spoils within the period of 3 years, beacuse of contact with water, etc, they'll change a new cam of the same model(if there is still stock), or another model of the same price range.

And I've got ultra lots of homework to complete. I think I'm really really lacking behind.

Anyway, I don't know what's the problem with THAT teacher-in-charge of ours. There's no need to bark around like a mad dog please? Even the other students feedback to their own chem teacher to please convey the message to him to not bark into the microphone during Chem lectures. Like argh. The more you bark, the more we students will not listen to you. We know your ego is way out of reach of a normal human, but you don't have to keep telling us we are not respecting you and stuff like that. We want to respect you, but you ain't giving us the opportunity to. You have to earn our respect please? You have to respect us too, if you want us to respect you. Listen to our opinions and not act like some big ego-maniac who thinks he is always correct. If it's the view of only one person, he may be biased.. But if it's a whole group of people, it's time for you to go home and do some reflections. Like, we ain't the same as the past generations, we value freedom, we want respect, we want to be listened to, and our opinions taken seriously, and not be regarded as some kids' gibberish. It's ridiculous to ask us to end our trainings so early, because we haven't really trained enough, and yet expect us to produce results. Why can the other CCA groups stay in the school until so late to train and yet we have to leave so early. We ain't some kid in primary school.. Our parents know we are in school for CCA. They know we won't be going home so early and they allow it. We are a bunch of 17 and 18-year-olds and it kinda acceptable for us to go home later than primary school kids?

Omg.. It makes my blood boils just thinking him.. BLEAH!

2007-04-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hmms.. Wushu comp is finally over, but now that it's over, there's like nothing to look forward to. I mean.. ok, before comp I was getting tired of all those trainings and not being able to improve, and stressed about all those homework piling up and the impending comp. but now that's it's over, there's sorta something missing. And I'm so not looking forward to the new training regime. I think I'll die terribly.

I cried on one of the days during comp can? That was super maluating lar. I hate letting people see me cry. I din intend to cry but I looked up and saw Von and tears just started flowing. And before that Daryl was like saying divide the missing amount among the AJWushu peeps, and that got me really guilty. I mean it ain't their fault and they don't have to pay a cent lar.. Anyway, I wasn't crying over the lost money lar.. That's kinda pathetic can. I think it's all the stress piling up and maybe a little cos I failed in my responsibility. I mean it's not that hard a job and yet I screwed it up, so yeah. And all the teachers are chasing me for homework and my Chem teacher just made me ultra pissed to the extent that tears of anger nearly squeeze their way out of my eyes. But that ain't very difficult lar... I cry easily. Like, really really easily.. I'm not strong-willed or what like other people tend to think I am, or maybe, I seem to be. So people, please don't make me cry.. haha. =X

Told my maths teacher during tutorial that I didn't do her homework 'cos was busy with comp. , but now it's all over. And she was like saying.. So you'll do all your future tutorials? Can I say no? Haha. So yeah.. I wish there's a mugger-making machine lar. I'll definitely buy it and transform myself into a mugger.

Hafta go do my tutorials now~

2007-04-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

Okay, I didn't do anything constructive during the weekend. Quite pissed actually. Just went for piano today without practising and it was total crap. Tons of homework undone and competition starts tomorrow, which means I'll most probably not be doing any work at all for the coming week. And, this sucks big time 'cos I'm already lagging. Actually, I prefer skipping stewpig lectures and do my homework instead 'cos some lectures just allow me to embrace the warmth and comfort of the sleeping god easily. They're a good way to treat insomnia. It's kinda hard not to fall into a deep slumber when the teachers are singing such melodious lullabies. Ok, I admit some teachers are good, like the current Physics lecturer, but I can't say the same for the Maths, Chem and Econs teachers. Anywa, I think we're gonna have another lecturer for Chem 'cos they just finished Chemical Energetics. I don't wish for a good one, but I hope the next lecturer is not too bad so that Chemistry lectures can get a tad more interesting.

Competition's starting tomorrow and I'll be competing on Tues and Thurs. Actually I think both are kinda gone cases, but everyone's like asking me to have some confidence and go out there and do my best. I guess I don't have any other choices 'cos no matter what, I'll still have to get down there and do my taolu. I try not to think too negatively lar.. Haha.

2007-04-02T12:07:00.000+08:00

Skipped PW lecture and here I am, in the library trying to get some work down but the computer proved to be too tempting for me. My computer is down again so it's kinda sad I think.. All my songs and pictures.. Sadded.

Saturday's wushu training and performance were a total screw-up for me. I don't know what's wrong with me on that day but I kept forgetting my taolu. HAix.. It was so maluating. I don't wanna join in the competition anymore.. There's like the mental stress and stuff.. And for the team event, I'm scared I do wrongly or worse, forget my taolu. That'll be like hai dao the whole team. I don't know why I wanted to compete so much last time.. It isn't that good or nice or whatever..

I think I'm becoming more and more like a loner.. Some days, I just don't wanna talk at all. The weird thing is, sometimes I don't even know why I don't wanna talk. Actually, it's kinda nice being by yourself.. It allows you space to think about lots of stuff.

I like banging on the piano more and more these days.. Nevermind that I can't play very well..

Sigh?

2007-03-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

School's generally alright.. But I got Mr Lim Kok Wee for PE teacher! Dead like shit. I nearly died today during pe!! He made us run so much.. And I so so so hate running!!! But I think I'm gonna try to jog real slowly thrice a week, 20 mins each time now 'cos Jack says the thigh can slim this way. Haha. I've got elephant's legs lar.. Super sian.

I have so much undone homework to complete by this weekend!!!

Had orientation for the new batch of wushu-ers. There weren't a lot of new people actually. Don't know if they'll stay in the cca or not. Haha. And we trained team event for wushu today. Our timings.. everything.. also not good. Guess we really have to buck up now. Competition is jsut 2 weeks away. And we gotta train individual event on our own 'cos Coach says he's most likely doing team events for the next 4 trainings before the competition.

I think I'm really unlucky? I'm like wedged between 2 pros for the Jing Sai Chang Quan. The judges and people watching sure go.."Wah! Pro!!.. Eh.. So Lan de.. WAHH!!! Pro one again!!" Go there cheng tuo their pro-ness and dian di. I think I won't be able to win anything this year lar.. But haix.. like stop training now also very wasted. I think I'll just try to do my best lar.. Sian.. I scared I forget my taolu or do wrongly on the actual day lar! Argh! I think I'll be damn scared! And I'm so not looking forward to going to Cath High tmr. So there malu myself and let lil green laugh at me for not being able to jump and do until so ugly. Triple sian.

Randomness

2007-03-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

My computer is finally up and running again after such a long time! Surprisingly, I didn't suffer any withdrawal symptoms.

Coach says I don't really have a chance of winning anything during the wushu comp.. So what's the use of my training now. Haha. Actually I don't really feel like competing now.. 'Cos I'm like so lan and go up there only to be owned by the pros. And I'm afraid my legs will turn to jelly when It's my turn to da taolu la!! I'm so not looking foward to the che shi this saturday at Cath High. Go there let ppl laugh only!! Argh.

I need to sit beside muggers during lectures. I sat beside Marvel during Maths lecture yesterday and, surprises of surprises, I was actually paying attention to what CASEY GOH was saying.. Like Casey Goh leh!! It's a miracle I understood what she was trying to say.

And my Chem tutor is cute. We asked her whether she's our Chem tutor again or not and she replied with," I don't want you all in my class. You all very not motivated.." LOL!! I was like o.O I mean it's quite true I'm not really motivated and stuff like that, but imagine a teacher saying she doesn't want you in her class. Haha. So funny lar!

Got my timetable today. It's relatively ok although it isn't as nice as last year's.. but I should be happy it's better than alot of other people's.

2007-03-10T11:26:00.000+08:00

My anceint phone is spoilt!! It cannot be charged anymroe.. Sian lehz.. I didn't have time to copy out all the contacts in the phone. And the messages are gone too! Sadded..

2007-03-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

Back from the family dinner. Wanted to go Koonsan to Chu Shi then have buffet dinner over there de.. but got the family dinner in the end so couldn't go.

Talked to my cousins and now I'm really frustrated 'cos I can't decide whether to transfer school or not. The more I talk to my cousins about it, the more I feel like transferring. I really hate the education system in JC.. I detest chemistry.. I don't see what's the use of studying chemistry.

I think if I were given the chance to go back in time and choose again, I would've chosen to go poly. But the problem is I chose to come to AJ last year. If it was last year, I don't think there'll be anything holding me back except for the fact that the poly route is a route less trekked by others wanting to go uni. But going to AJ last year, I made many good friends.. 01/06.. AJWushu.. I can't bear to part with them now. I want to participate in the inter-schools wushu competition with the rest of the people in AJWushu. We trained so hard for the past year so we can take part in the competition.. And I really want to be in the competition with them.

My cousin was telling me that I have to learn to let go.. That I can't have the best of both worlds. But I really can't make up my mind. I want to go poly.. Yet I can't bear to go.

Why is it so hard to make a decision? There are many more decisons I have to make in the years to come.. And how am I supposed to face those problems if I can't even decide what and where I want to study..

Nearly teared when I was discussing with my cousin.. I'm so damn-ing weak.

2007-03-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

Went for piano lesson today, and I discovered that I missed 1 lesson without knowing it. So in total I missed 3 out of 4 lessons last month. I think my mom will kill me if she knows about it lar.. =X Anyway, during the lesson, this lady sitting in front of me suddenly turned around and was like looking at my score.. Then I was like.. Is there something on my score or what? Then she suddenly said I played quite well fro the first part.. o.0 Then after that no one dared to play anything for a while.. Haha. I'm really not musically-inclined lar.. I think Diana nearly died trying to teach me how to play Jie Kou. =X I can't catch the timings de.. my rhythm very lan.

Went home after the lesson and while we were talking on the train, this woman suddenly said in this really rang-wo-ting-de-hen-bu-shuang de tone and said "give your seats to the elderly.." Then I looked up and saw this 2 elderly women standing at the side and so mer and I stood up and offered them the seats lar.. Then Mer was like saying like very paiseh, 'cos still need people to ask us to stand up. But then, it ain't our fault that we were talking intently and weren't paying attention to our surroundings. We have absolutely no idea they there were elderly standing near us. Okay, I think I wouldn't know the woman was there if she had not spoken lar.. Like.. Do I have to pay attention to my surroundings all the time? If that's the case, people would not be falling down and hurting themselves and accidents would not have happen and what have we not.. Okay lar.. I'm just pissed with the tone the woman used. If we were so un-civic-minded (or whatever word lar..), we wouldn't have gotten up and offer our seats even after she had spoken.

Hmms.. When do you use present-perfect? And when do you use past-perfect? Grammar is trying to kill me..

Mer said I looked thinner when she saw me in school last week~~ WAHAHA!

2007-02-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

Had wushu training today but we didn't really do much 'cos coach wasn't there. Practised lion dance and Teng and I learnt how to da gu from CW~~ Yay!! I like to da gu.. Haha.

Coach doesn't want to talk to me anymore.. =x

Asked my mom why she like don't really like lion dance like that.. Then she was like saying I'm spending too much time on all these kinda stuff and not ocncentrating on my studies.. And like the general opinion of the people in lion dance is that they aren't really good at studying etc. Wells.. And then she wandered off and ask me to consider transferring to a poly instead. Like since I don't like the system in JC and at elast it's more hands-on in Poly. I dont' know whether I should transfer or not.. I wish I'm brave enough to do so.. I don't like the JC system, but I haven't got the guts to study in a Poly 'cos I don't have a clear goal of waht I want to be in the future. I'm scared I'll find the course I'm taking not to my liking only after taking it and then I'll end up not here nor there. Yet again? And I can't bear to part with my friends in AJ too. Some people may say it's my future we're talking about now.. Like.. Your life-long happiness or something? But it's harad to make a decision.. I don't like deciding stuff, 'cos I'm not jian1 jue2 enough.

How I wish I hadn't do well enough to ensure my transition into a JC.. How I wish I was left with no choice but to apply to a Poly with my O'levels result.. I seriously admire those who dare to veer off from the conventional path and choose a Poly route..

Sadded life..

2007-02-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

Went for lion dance with Teng for the past 2 days with Koonsan. I must say it's kinda fun and good. It was fun crapping with the people there~ And at least it took my mind off some stuff.. But I kept getting suanned by them! Like half of them got suanned me at some point.. It's only the extent of the suanning. Haha.. I think Little Green suanned the most! But she got slapped by me..=x But she's very nice lar.. Peeled oranges for me to eat when I was hungry 'cos the food hadn't arrive. Can't really say if my da ba skill got improve or not.. But I think got improve a teeny bit lar? =P But I can say my shu nu image is destroyed!!! Coach's sister said my image is destroyed even before she met me 'cos Coach told her!!!

And thanks to Gary I don't have to waste like 1+ hour travelling home from Ubi. And his car is damn cool! The lights that come on when ya open the door is cool lehz.. And got tv and dvd player if i'm not wrong..

I'm faced with problems that I've never encountered in my 17+ years of life, and I don't know how to handle it.. Should I just ignore and heck care? Call me paranoid or whatever you want.. but I just can't shake that feeling off. This has got to be the worst year in my nearly 18 years of living.. How I wish that the last 5 years would just keep repeating themselves.. They were the happiest years of my life up till now.. Those were the days...

2007-02-23T00:23:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a pissing day..

3rd day of CNY

2007-02-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

3rd and last day of our CNY holiday. Met JF at Khatib at 9am so she can pass me the cropped-jacket and I psycho-ed her into coming to my house. Haha. 'Cos if she doesn't want to come now, I don't think she can come any other time already.. Haha. The whole house will be in a mess if it's not CNY lar.. =p After that, sent JF to the MRT station and I brought my OG mates to my house. We then went to each and every one of our houses~ But I didn't get to go to FFZJW's and CHOSO's houses 'cos I went off to go Pak's house.

I wen to Pak's house for a while and then Ah Thom they all jiu leave liao lar! Tooty.. =P and they helped me pass my lvl 14 license for Audition and earn Dens for me!! Woohoo~~ Then played a few rounds of mahjong with Jacq, Ah Liang and Kelwin. Kelwin is super unlucky!!! They play bridge rites.. who partner with him sure lose one.. haha. I didn't get to bridge though.. Haha. Hope can bridge in school~~ After that we went to this don't-know-called-what palce to have dinner. The food there is ex!!! And Pak's parents treating us then very paiseh larh.. Thanks alot for the meal~

Wanted to pool after dinner initially, but the table was occupied, so Pak's dad brought us all to the Newton MRT stn so we can go home~

And I broke my necklace at the mrt stn. Tug too hard on the string le.. Haha.. =x Violent me..

I haevn't do my GP project yet! Wonder what Ms Tan will say tmr..

CNY + randomness

2007-02-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

CNY is here once again~ Hmms.. I must say this year's CNY isn't very nice.. 'cos like it doesn't really feel like CNY at all. It's like just a normal holiday; the mood just isn't there.. The only different thing about this holiday is that we get to eat those CNY cookies, snacks and titbits and gamble and see all my uncles, aunts and cousins, and get ang baos. Haha. Hmms..

Anyway, I wore this really feminine dress today~ And I wore a pair of heels along with it! haha. I like the dress!! =D Maybe I'll wear it out someday when I go out with friends.. But I think it actually looks quite formal? Like tose you'll wear to prom or some wedding.. Maybe I'll just have to be thick-skin and wear the dress out. Haha. Shall put up a photo when I have the time. Haha. =P

Still at my cousin's house now. Don't know what time then can go home.. I'm feeling quite bored now actually. But at least I can still use the computer. Haha.

I've a very packed schedule this CNY~~ Haha. Meeting up with ppl and stuff like that until I don't have time to do my homework!! Guess Ms Tan will kill us all when we return back to school on Wenesday with our not-yet-started-on project. Haha.

I'm gonna go with my parents to their friend's farmhouse tomorrow morning before meeting up with the W.A at Bishan. But I think I'll only meet them for a while 'cos I'll be meetng the wushu peeps at 5.50pm at Plaza Singapura.

Oh yar.. I wanna buy this pair of Nike sneakers I saw at AMK Hub!! It's quite cheap for a Nike sneakers leh!! And it looks nice too~~ It costs 80+ bucks and it's like 40 bucks cheaper than my last pair.. But my dad wants me to buy Converse de 'cos like got the voucher.. I hope my mama will allow me to buy!! * prays hard*

And i wanna buy this Casio watch too~~But now I can't decide which to buy le.. I'm like suing between 3 designs. Actually I wanted to buy this design which has stars and moons kn it.. But now rites.. See Zheng En's watch see long le I think his warch design is nicer lar.. And there still this other watch design which I dont know hwo to describe. haha.

Too many wants + limited resources (in this case, money) = Frustrated YuMin.. =X

Lion Dance

2007-02-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

Today's lion dancce was a success!!! And the wushu performance in school in conjunction with CNY was fabulous!! The skit by YiMing, Marvel and Liu Chang was so hilarious lar!! Lol. I like the CPR part!! haha. And the individual taolus also very nice to watch!!! Marvel's performance was so damn funny!! His dao flew out of his hand lar! Then he was like sorry sorry.. then went to pick up.. Like the mood from serious to comical lar! Couldn't stop laughing~ And KR and Wilson's shuang bi shou's performance was also nice larh.. very zheng qi. (eh.. like that happy mah?? got ur name lehz.. =P)

Anyway, after school we made out way to Kaki Bukit for the lion dance performance at Daryl's dad's company and some others too. And we went around with Coach's troupe~ Must really thank them for helping us out!! haha. They're super good!! Xiao Qing da ba super loud and good lar! then the Ben da gu hip-hop style one.. And then!! Omg.. WenDa's cai3 gao1 qing1 was super nice to watch!! He's like super good lar! Idol liao..

And we earned a grand total of S$1474 today~~ *Applause please*

Thank you Daryl's dad for helping us earn money~ =P And Koon San for helping us out today!!

BOOHOO!

2007-02-09T08:45:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! Mer messaged me just now to tell me that I actually needed to go sch today!?!?!? I didn't know lar.. 'Cos I thought Yirong told me Friday don't need, then next mon - wed then needa go school. Apparently I heard wrongly lar! Then now is today we are supposed to go school do self-study, then next mon - wed we don't have to go school. Argh. I don't mind going to sch today actually. 'Cos it's like self-study and stuff like that.

Boohoo..

I'm so traumatised by the fact that I din go to school today.

And i'm supposed to go back to sch for wushu later on!

And I still needa check whether my dental appt is still on or not 'cos I don't have the consent form. Teng told me first-timers visiting the school dental service hafta have their parent/s sign a consent form. argh.

X-country

2007-02-03T09:56:00.000+08:00

Had cross country at Bishan Park yesterday. It was ok. Ran half the route and walked the other half. It's not so tiring to run in this kinda place 'cos you have changing scenery, not like on the track.. Super retarded. Ran with Shirlynn and Selene~~ Don't their names sound alike? Haha. Anyway, prior to that, I went to have lunch with my class people at KFC. They were like saying my Ez-link's and IC's photos don't look like how I look now.. but I don't think there's such a big diff? Can still see it's me, unlike some others.. =X haha.

Talking to my class is like talking to air like that.. 'Cos they always don't answer de~ haha. =x

And, Shirlynn won the first prize for the lucky draw~~ haha. A nike bag with Brasil on it.

Cheetah House won again!! Yay!!

Anyway, after cross country I went to eat dinner with my OG, but not before going to Ren Hui's house to collect our bags first. Thank you SuWen for helping me take my bag! And Felicia helped me tie my hair!! It's so nice~~ haha. Thanks alot! She's pro at tying hair larh.. I wanna tie that hairstyle in school one of the days~ Hehe.

We went to J8 for our dinner and couldn't really find any seats at the eateries over there, so decided to buy Subway up to the Open Plaza to eat. Met alot of AJCians over there. haha. And we took NEOPRINTS too!!! WAHAHA! Love taking neos. So fun lar~!

Met KR at J8 and went home with him,

I dicovered that I'm getting pissed more often these days. haha. I keep getting pissed when people can't make up their mind.. Then very tuo ni dai shui, tuo tuo la la or whatever.. Haha.

OGF interview?

2007-01-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

Had the OGF interview today. The interviewers were Alford and this girl lar.. Don't know who is she. haha. I screwed up the whole thing! Was giving all the guai lan answers etc, so I think I most probably won't be selected. I guess I'm just naturally quite guai lan? Haha.

Did some homework with some of the wushu peeps~ Zi Jian is damn funny lar! He always laugh for don't know what reasons.. Haha. Then I borrowed physics and maths tut. from him~ yay!! Then I can check my work against his and can refer if I can't do. haha.. I really nvr borrow just to copy de kays.. I'll make sure I understand~ haha. That reminds me.. I haven't return Larry his chem tut!! S.H.I.T

I've to complete maths, physics and econs tut tonight! Mugging is the way to go~

2007-01-20T10:20:00.001+08:00

Argh. All subjects got tutorials to do. So sucky. And I don't know how to do the chem tutorial! So dead.

Bonded with the class a little during civics class yesterday and I was sabo-ed by Diana to be one of the class rep! Damnit! Wanted to be a normal member lar.. I opted for being the one in charge of welfare instead of the college events 'cos it looks slacker. And my assisstant is Sangeev. Don't know what kinda person he is, but hope he'll help. So I'm in charge of organising outings and take note of everyone's birthday etc. for the class. I'm like always the one organising these things lar.. DIANA!!! WHY DID YA SABO ME?!

Anyway, we did this OG family tree and LaoBelle and I are the first generation~ She's my wifey! Haha. I got great great grandson! Haha. And we are gonna have OG outing next saturday~ YAY!

Hmms.. But teng they all wanna start saturday wushu trainings next sat. Think I will decide what to do when it's nearer sat.

On a heavier note, the sign-up form for the annual wushu comp. has arrived. And we'll know by next wednesday who's in the competition I think? I'm very scared I won't get to be in the group comp. There's 7 girls but coach said he'll only pick 6 to compete for the group event. But then if I happened to be able to get in, then the 1 person who didn't will be very ke lian lehz. Imagine, ya train so hard and you didn't get to compete in the end, couple with the fact that you are the only person who didn't get in.. If the person is me, I will feel damn miserable even though I may not show it out.

But come to think of it, ain't this what they call rivalry? We are supposed to be this 1 big family where there ain't supposed to be any rivalry among us, but here we are wishing and wanting to be in the team, while some others will be left behind.

Is this how it should be? This is a cruel world.. You are forced by circumstances to consider doing things that might not be what you really wish to do, but yet you can't really choose the other route too. Either way you're gonna get hurt somehow. I know I'll be very relieved and happy if I get into the team, but what of the 1 person who can't?

I guess the only thing we can do now is to train hard together and let Coach decide the rest bah..

AJWushu!!! JIA YOU!!!

2007-01-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

Today's an alright day. Had some IT talk in the morning but I wasn't listening at all~ Was talking to LaoBel. haha. Then haiyo.. Alien Xiao Wei is one pervert guy. *shakes head* He likes the Ding-Dong game alot. (goong) We went for maths after that, and it's the first time I'm seated so close to the lecturer! My OG's always sitting in front. Haha. Met my class for the first time too. The people there are alright I guess? But I prefer my OG.. Sianx. Tomorrow's the last day we are using the temp. timetable , which also means that we won't be seeing each other so much le. We can't meet up too often too 'cos like everyone's timetable is different and it's kinda hard to choose a day and timing where everybody can make it.

Went to meet Shirlynn, Jacq and Pak in the RR to play bridge. Was teaming with Shirlynn 'cos Zhao Liang was playing there too. haha. He's one funny person la.. haha. He made this super funny facial expression! So.. spas? Haha. And they were like saying he's a good person to punch/hit/beat/whatever, 'cos he won't retaliate~ It was fun playing with them! Sigh. I hope we can have more of this kinda bridging sessions. haha. I must brush up on my bridging skills! I'm like always super retarded and can't guess who's my partner accurately!

Had OG lunch at the AMK Central's hawker centre. Went to play pool after that~ Played 1 round teaming with SuWen and XiaoWei VS WenJie and Felicia. I didn't get a single ball in today! haha. So tooted!

Went back to school for wushu, and today's training is the toughest since don't know how many months. We hadn't had such a proper training since September last year or sth. Haha. And I couldn't really slack today 'cos Coach didn't choose me to teach the J1s la! Argh!! Then the rest of us had to train with the pro J1s. It was so embarrassing to show them our lousy wushu skills. *shakes head*

I think I'll be rolling to school tomorrow. My legs hurt like shit! Tomorrow sure muscle ache like siao. Walking will be such a torture. Running will be worse. I pity Daryl who's got PE for his first lesson tomorrow~ =x Like.. So sad? Haha. =p Jia You, yeah?

I think alot less people will be coming for next wushu training. Sadded. I hope those I know won't quit.. =( But if they really don't like it then there's no point also. Haha. Sincerely hope they'll/they've developed an interest for wushu~ Nothing comes without a price..

Okay, think I'm going to go study for a lil while before turning in.

Tigris Outing

2007-01-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

Went for og gathering today~ I was late as usual lar.. =X I'll try not to be late next time! haha. Met Felicia at AMK stn to go to Paradiz Centre's KBox at Dhoby Ghaut together. We were the latest lar. Haha. Then Felicia started singing once she got into the room, and that led to the (tirade?) of singing thereafter. (don't know what word to use lar..=p) I can't sing for heavens sake lar! Like the whole song the note keep going off. haha. Wen Jie can sing damn well leh! He sang until we couldn't differentiate his voice from Jay's except for the difference in loudness when we mute Jay's voice and when we on it. Damn good lar! Like Selene like that.. So pro de.

Went to play Pool after that 'cos Mind's Cafe didn't have enough space for us yet. My group won 1 and lost 2. Haha. But it was kinda fun lar~ Went to check out mind's Cafe after that and we managed to secure seats for us after a while. It was damn fun playing there lar! We played this game that's like Uno Stacko, except that you'll have to do the "dare or truth" on it. It was super funny lar!! I had to imitate a chicken's sound or sth lar! Damn retarded! haha. Then after that we decided to just use a dice to play~ It was super hilarious seeing the forfeiters do the forfeit lar! There were dares like doing the trademark Titanic "You jump, I jump" pose, helping the guy button his shirt, kissing the other's hand, proposing pose, asking the waiter where's Mind's Cafe and etc. Super funny lar!! Couldn't stop laughing and my face got red and hot from all the laughing! haha. Gonna get the pictures from Agatha~

Went to Plaza Sing to rot after that, but we didn't stay for too long lar. Then some left while the rest of us went to Macs to continue our talking and some eating. left at like 10 plus or 11 plus like that. Don't know exactly. haha.

Let's have another gathering/outing soon~ =D

And I think 2 more ppl from my OG are joining wushu~ It's like a mini Tigris lar! =p

Normal lessons resume

2007-01-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

I'm in the school library now waiting for the rest of the wushu peeps to finish school so we can go to cine to watch deathnote2~ Today is sucha boring day can.. Had 3 hrs break and absolutely nothing to do. Want be hardworking and study also can't 'cos we haven't got the lecture notes yet. Haha. But I ain't that hardworking one larh. =P

And today is sucha paiseh day la. I thought this guy in my OG is called Joel when actually he's not. And I still say so loud that I know what's his name.. -_-" Now I seriously don't know who's this Joel person. Haha. Oh wells.. I discovered today that alot of my OG peeps don't take the same combination as me.. Like alot take Bio instead of Phy. I hope my class peeps are fun leh~ Haha.

Was trying m hardest not to doze off halfway through the talk and lectures. Damn boring can. But haix.. Is there some miracle pill that can lemme not sleep during lectures and tutorials not?!

I just saw some AMKsec de people with arms full of thick books, walking around trying to find a conducive place to study. OMG!!! This is only the first official normal lession day leh!! And like most subjects haven't start their lectures yet too lar! They are so damn hardworking lar... Shit. I must be like them man!! I shall make them my rolemodels..

Quiz~

2007-01-07T20:29:00.001+08:00

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Intellect		50%
Emotional Stability		74%
Aggressiveness		66%
Liveliness		66%
Dutifulness		62%
Social Assertiveness		62%
Sensitivity		58%
Paranoia		26%
Abstractness		66%
Introversion		46%
Anxiety		70%
Openmindedness		58%
Independence		34%
Perfectionism		46%
Tension		50%

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End of O1

2007-01-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterday marked the end of O1 and wells.. It's kinda sad actually. But at least we'll stay with our OG for another 2 weeks, I hope? Joined my OG for dance and everything and it was fun, fun and more fun! And while we were waiting for a descendant from another ancient to come and play game with us, the girls started saying dirty and lame jokes lar! haha. It was fun talking, crapping and everything with the OG ppl~

Had to leave halfway to go rehearse from the dance for the finale. I forgot the steps lar!! So last minute work can.. haha.

Went to join the wushu peeps for training while waiting for our turn to perform.

And finally it's our turn! I danced alot of steps wrongly, forgot some steps and I was slower than the rest I think? Argh. Damn maluating. And apparently this Anderson guy from Daryl's OG recognised me and asked Daryl why is there such a huge difference between Steven's dancing and mine. =( I can't dance mah.. Haha. Oh wells.. I'm so not musically inclined lar, and si zhi bu fa da.

Sat with YuYan and Jacq beside Cheetiah afer the dance to watch the performance. Went back to my OG after some time though. Ate and talked and watched and crapped and drank. And we danced in th rain! It was kinda cool larh, although I don't really like to be in the rain. haha.

My OG went to eat at KFC after that and there were quite alot of AJCians there lar. Haha. Then someone in my OG said I don't look like someone who can dance la.. Quite true actually. haha. He said I look like someone from some club&society CCA la. That's like totally different from what my frens think lar.. They thought I'll be in some sports cca but I'm actually in dance in seondary sch lar. Haha. I'm sporty can! =p But my stamina sucks lar. Damnit.

Went for Wushu training for Lion Dance today. Woke up damn early to meet Daryl at TPY. I was super tired lar!! Didn't have enough slp. Haix. My beautiful precious sleep... Met up with KR at Eunos ad went to some hawker centre over there to have our breakfast. Then after that, we waited for the rest to arrive before taking bus to some Ubi industrial park or sth de place. I couldn't really catch the timing for the different.. eh.. clapping/clanging/whateverword style. Argh! I hope I won't blunder on the actual day.

CCA carnival is next week and I hope lotsa ppl come and join wushu!

O1 - 2nd day

2007-01-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

Second day of Orientation and HuiQi, mer and I skipped practically the whole morning's programmes 'cos it's all crap. Principal's talk, subject talk ..lalala.. all crap lar. I was sleeping away when Billy's talking lar. And we ponned subject talk and went to the library to watch some show, but wells.. we couldn't get the headphones to work and everything and we got kinda sian when we played it on the computer. So, the Qi and I started playing Pikaball! Haha. So damn funny larh!! I couldn't find the spike button for one of the players! Tooty~

Went to sleep in canteen while waiting for the subject talk to end. Went up at around 12 then this Zheng En suddenly came out of the hall and call me. I was damn stewpig lar.. I asked him what's he doing there.. then he was like, for orientation lar! Stewig qn comes with stewpig ans. haha. Sounds so retarded. =x

Joined my og for lunch and after that, games and dance. It was relatively okay. I got all wet from the games larh! And I think I can't differentiate my left from my right lar! haha. I kept turning the wrong way for the dance. Haha. My partner is this guy from CHS I think. Not very sure though. Haha. I think the whole dance is quite funny leh. =P It's the same as last year's orientation I think? I hope tmr's dance is the new one. I wanna learn leh.. Haha.

I did another stewpig thing today too. They passed this wallet and phone to me and asked me to pass it on to a Kai Wei. Then I was like.. Is there a Kai Wei in our OG? thent he person in front of me turned around lar! So damn retarded!! haha. I think he's psychic!! He turned to me and said," You're from Anderson Sec rites? Do you know this blah blah blah person?" Then I said no and asked him how he knw I'm from Anderson sec, and he said 'cos I wore the uniform. But that however is not the case 'cos I was wearing AJ uniform all the while la! He couldn't have known I'm from ANDSS 'cos I didn't say I was from there! Then me and the person sitting beside me was like.. No? i was wearing AJ uniform all the while! Then he was like.. Aiya, both also Anderson mah.. affiliated lar, so must be from there lar! And I replied that the 2 schools are not affiliated at all~ haha. And he admitted defeat~ Wahaha! =x Damn funny lar! Really is psychic..

We're gonna have pizza for lunch tmr~~ Yay! haha. But we needa bring 10 bucks for it larh.. Hope it's not really that ex lar. I'm saving up for.. eh.. just saving up lar!

Gathering with wushu J1,2&3

2007-01-02T11:38:00.000+08:00

Went for the gathering for the wushu j1,j2and j3. It was ok larh. Ate at Fish market and I shared the Manhattan seafood platter for 2 with teng. Some stewpigg ass told coach I wore super feminine clothes on 26th dec and my actions that day were also feminine. Toot lar. Why they everything also tell coach de. They told coach that during breaks and in-between classes, if I see them I'll chase after them fro the wushu fund. Toot lar. Spoil all my image. The food made me super full larh, but i hope I didn't gain alot of weight after that.

After dinner, we went off to Esplanade to sit around and talk and whatever lar. We did sit around, but it was kinda boring larh.. Maybe we are all diferent age and stuff and coupled with the fact that we don't really know the j3s and they were the most there, we didn't really know what to do. I thought there were only 5 j3s larh.. But apparently it is not the case. Then they started playing this 7-up game larh. I didn't really listen to the stuff they are saying larh.. then keep doing the wrong things and then I decided to back out of the game. They must think that I'm this idiotic spoilt brat sore loser larh.. Haha. But wells, I don't like to play these kinda games that require the killing of my already limited brain cells.

We went to Marina Sq to play pool after that. Teamed up with Zhi Hao and Teng and we won the first round~ But we lost all the games thereafter. haha. =P

Went home with some of them after that while the rest go clubbing with coach. There were no bus nor train home for me 'cos it's already past 12, but thank heavens for the night rider service. And our seniors are nice ppl! Very gentle-man/woman-ly. =x They even asked me whether I have enough money for cab in case i need to take cab home halfway or sth and they were suggesting giving me money to take cab home lar. And one of them took NR1 with me in the end lar. They were like saying cannot let girl go home alone or sth like that. Damn nice of them larh. And they called to check whether I reached home or not le la. So totally different from our batch de. =P Teng and I were like saying our seniors are so totally different from our batch's guys in terms of their dressing, actions, mannerisms, etc. *shakes head* But oh wells.. Our batch's younger.. Hope they can be more matured following their increase in their chronological age~

My grammar is going so off.. Damn. It's all speaking in mandarin now with most of my frens except the W.A. People!! Speak to me in English please~

Down down down..

2006-12-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

Finally can log into blogger, but I still can't see my blog 'cos the page doens't load. Damn irritating, but i guess it can't be helped. Can't really rememebr what I wanted to blog about the past few days. Haha.

I like Zheng Yuan Chang~~~ OMG! haha. Finished watching KO ONE le. There's like so many people I like inside the show larh!! Cai Wu Xiong, Ji An, Ding Xiao Yu, Lei Ke Si~ Wu Zun quite shuai too. Haha.

So sian larh.. Hafta go for Orientation 1 or else will kena disciplinary actions. So lame larh. I was only planning to go on the first day then skip the other 2 days. And I'm in Pumera larh.. Tigris I think.. I want Cheetah lar!!

Tooty.

Hmms?

2006-12-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

Just remembered.. When I was walking home from the MRT station after work on Monday, I saw this guy wearing AJ PE shirt sitting with with his girlfriend and smoking lar!! Please larh.. Want to smoke don't wear AJ de shirt lehz.. Super disgusting can.

Went to school for wushu today. Was like 30min late la.. haha. Learned the BA for lion dance~ it's kinda cool larh.. But tiring on the hands. haha.

Went to JF's house after that. Her dad and grandma damn fierce alrh.. I think her grandma is pissed with us. She didn't answer any of us when we said bye to her. She's this really really traditional woman who prefers everything around her to be.. well, traditional. Luckily my grandparents ain't like that.. Or else I don't know how I'll survive larh.

Lotsa things waiting for me to finish~

bah.

2006-12-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

Worked yesterday and was paired up with Mer. I accidentally dripped some fish sauce on a guest! That was totally dumb lar! I was clearing their plates and I was just like swiping (or wahtever sword that is.. I can't think of a suitable word) the plate off the table larh. Was damn paiseh and all larh.. I hope she nvr go complain to the captain.. =x

I'm earning so little larh!!! I want work OT! Work until 6am.. Can earn alot lehz.. Haha. 12 hours~ But I don't know if I can tahan until then not larh.. Haha. I want a pair of flats I saw in Charles and Keith! It's really comfortable and wear and it looks quite nice too~ haha. Must earn more money!! Working this thursday agn and hopefull on Christmas Day and next thurs and fri and maybe saturday too. Earn moeny for the new school year~ haha.

booked my dental appointment le.. 9th February, 2.10pm. That's so long away lar.. First and probably last time going to the school dental service. haha. Private one is so ex larh.. I work one day then just nice to cover 1 visit to the dentist lar.. Maybe left with some money to go kopitiam eat lunch and that's all. Why am I so old?

Cousin's wedding~

2006-12-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

Just got back from my cousin's wedding~ Haha. Okay, he looks quite shuai today~ haha. And Hao and I were like fooling around and stuff. I think I really should change the way I talk lar.. Wear feminine clothes but don't talk like one. haha. habits are ahrd to change yeah?

The food was quite good!! YumYum!! I love the prawns!! And I got to eat 5 prawns thanks to my sister and cousin! haha. They didn't want theirs~ More kilos yet agn.

People said I've slimmed down although my weight suggest otherwise. haha. So sad larh.. I think maybe it's 'cos of the dress I'm wearing. Haha.

I got godparents today. Actually they're just my uncle and aunt. They've been asking me whether I want to be their goddaughter since June lar. Haha. I guess I'm quie happy to have godparents bah? Haha.

4/1 gathering

2006-12-16T00:41:00.000+08:00

Had 4/1 gathering today~ Haha. Around half the class turned up. Okay, actually Hui, Chong and I were just like living in our own world and talking amongst ourselves lar.. Made me realise that actually our class ain't that bonded. haha. And Pradip changed so much lar! The way he speaks and all..! The English accent.. Yo!Yo! kinda. Totally not Singaporean at all!! And it's so different from the way he speaks when he was in Anderson! All slangy and and stuff! Haha. But I guess tha's not a bad thing after all? Since Singaporeans tend to not speak very well sometimes.. Not all though. Some speak beautifully. Not me of course. I speak like some shit larh.

Anyway, we decided to have our dinner at Cafe Cartel in the end. It took damn long for them to serve us our food lar!!! They took the wrong order and gave us seafood platter lor.. Then we told them and they had to cook our Crispy Combo which wasted even more time lar! Anywa, it's really crispy larh! Piled on dont know how amny kilos le.. Damn sad. Haha. But I think the saddest have to to be Yu Duan bah? He waited in vain for his food and when he finally asked the waitress about it, they told him it'll come in around 10 min. Talk about good service. Most finished their food long ago larh!

We sorta parted ways with the class after that and the three of us then walked around for awhile before making our way home.

My mom bought me a dress lar!! She wants me to wear it to my cousin's wedding tomorrow and I think i'm gonna do it. haha. Cheers~~ Feminine me!

Wushu

2006-12-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

Went for wushu training today. Nearly died man. My stamina sucks and I was feeling damn weak in the arms and legs. Argh.. So many things to train for, yet so little time to do them. Stamina, legs-strength, arms-strength. I da quan nua nua one larh. Sian. Received quite alot of constructive feedbacks during training. Gotta work on them man. I nearly vomitted when I did the balancing thing in my taolu. Damn it. Haha. Lucky never larh..

Anyway, we got the prezzie for the J2s le.. haha. I wanna one too!! I'm looking forward to tmr's baking session and J2 farewell dinner. Bonding time~ Haha. Dunno if I should wear skirt not.. KR asked me not to torture them by wearing a skirt. Haha. I think I'll do just that~ Haha. But still hafta see my mood tmr~ haha.

KR says I look like Alex from afar.. Especially with my new glasses. But I beg to differ.. It is he who looks like me and not the other way round! haha. But I still don't think we look alike.. Hmms..

One of the captains at the place I'm working thought I'm a Vietnamese (is it spelt like that?) hen he looked at my name tag. I don't think my name is that funny leh.. It ain't that hard to read what.. Hmms..

Day out in Orchard

2006-12-13T11:19:00.000+08:00

went to Kbox yesterday with Teng, Wilson, Sixu, Zheng En and MeiHui. Woke up late so reached there like 1145 like that.. They toot larh! Nvr tell me is 8th floor de.. Hai me go the 4th floor de.. Tooted. Then they say the room is 3K, but when I went there it's a couple larh! So paiseh lorz.. Argh~ But it was quite fun larh~ Sixu is so damn funny kays.. Kept wanting to sing, but then he always too gan chiong then sing very fast and out of tune de larh! Sing with him ya will always feel like going out of tune de.. Haha. But.. aiya.. I sing very nan ting also~ Haha. My voice is too thin.. Haha. Then after that we went to take neoprint~ yay!!! Haha. Then after that we went to walk walk around larh. Saw Derrick when we were on our way to Heeren. Anyway, we damn lame larh.. Go heeren then take escalator up to the fifth floor then come down agn. Ultra lame can. Then actually we wanted to go to Far East de, but decided to go Lucky Plaza's Macs for bonding session in the end. Haha. Crapped around and stuff like that larh..

They went home at 4+ while I made my way to City Hall to meet Rasiah and JF to buy Bels's prezzie. After that, we went back to Orchard to walk walk around and wait for the movie to start and Bels to arrive. Bought this Ink bronze bag for 40 bucks lar!! Argh! So broke now.. Don't know waht got over me lar!! I don't think it's worth it now lar. Waste money only.. And the more I look at it and carry it, the more I think it's not that nice anymore. The prev. Ink bag I bought was only 18 bucks lorz.. This Jf was like saying it's cheap then I was Huh.. Cheap arh.. Ok lor.. Then after that she told me she heard wrongly.. -_-" !!! Tooted.

Caught Eragon and I think the show is nice!!! I like the show~~~ Haha. Arrogant Eragon. They rhymes yeah? Haha. But he's not arrogant in the show lar.. Haha. Dragon rider.. Woot~ But it's a trilogy I think.. So must wait.. haha.

I wanna watch Night in the Museum and Death Note 2 leh!!!

2006-12-11T15:04:00.000+08:00

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

YumYum

2006-12-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

Got back from the wushu function le~ Sat at the same table as Coach's family larh! Then we don't dare to eat and everything.. Haha. And I don't know how to write alot of chinese characters la!! Tooted.. 1 year nvr touch chinese jiu shi like that. And my chinese ain't all that great to begin with.

Saw the retarded shikai lar! But me wearing feminine clothes today can't afford to spoil my shu nu image and kick his gargantuan butt. I'm so sorry JF!!! Didn't manage to help ya get your revenge. And he was still denying that he said I'm ugly when he said it behind my back twice in school. Retarded ass. And the stewpig JianBing said it's the truth what.. Omg.. My heart is shattered into a million pieces. I can't help it if I'm ugly lar.. Retarded asses. Sing somemore lar..

Decided not to go Pak's palce after the event ended and someone, whom Coach said I'm supposed to call him Shi Bo, sent me home~ Yay! Don't needa take bus. Haha. Thanks alot!! Lucky not Coach send me home.. Wear skirt cannot sit bike.. Later skirt fly up.. Haha.

Stewpig Coach went around telling people that I'm the girl who eats the most in the wushu team and this can be proven by the amount of fats I have. Damn it lar! And now more and more peopl know I'm retained lar.. No thanks to Coach.

Coach is 75kg.. or is it 72kg? It's either one.. Haha. He said it himself.. Lol. Not much better than me.. =p